char's looney world

2010-09-03T01:46:00.001-07:00

i m so tired =.=

Starting work on mondayyy!!!

I wonder if my pay is too low =(((((((((

Mayb i shld haf asked for more....sobbz

2010-06-09T10:28:00.000-07:00

ANNYONG~~~

I so so so miss korea...=(
Those times where we do not have to worry about finding for jobs and school...=(((
Those carefreeeeee daysss.....

Weili and I were just talking about it...
Korea reminds us of the times where we bought lots of accessories.... =D
We met up today cause weiliiiii wanna dye her hair red....
The colour turned out pretty nice... =))
Awww, we met each other and know each other for like ten years??? ( Weili and I! )

I cant stand people who brags.
Super Buay tahan...Sometimes feel like taking a hammer and hammer their heads...
Seriously,,,,,,
If you are that good, just take comfort by knowing it in your heart....
If you want acknowledgement from others, at least be discreet.....lol

Cause excessive bragging only makes you look terrible.... =))))

( Us at Everland...lololololol...superrr randommmmm cause here I am posting some korea pictures when I am complaining about braggers....)

OOHHHH...look how happy we are...or maybe, satisfied?WAHHAHA...( This picture was taken when we were having our meal in korea...we used self timer, so that all 3 of us can be captured at the same time...LOLOLOL....Tara had to run to and forth...)

(P/s these pictures were taken using Tara's camera. Weili has yet to upload pictures from her camera....I look like I am digging my nose...BUt i aint k...=X)

Got sinful stuff from NTUC...
This aunty here has no money anymore....AWWW...I NEED A JOB...

Serena, job hunting with me???HOHOHOHOHOHO.......

Excited for no reason in the night...Actually, I dont know what to blog, just random rubbish so serena ang can see something in my blog tomorrow...hohohoho.....

See, I treat you so well....hohoh......remember to buy me stuff....lollll
CIAO....

2010-06-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

Return of horror part 2...

Thanks to our very very veryyyy creative mother, we experienced many different types of weird FOOD....And when I say weird...IT IS WEIRD...not something that is frequently eaten at HOME... (Of course there are weirder food outside..)

I thought god has been nice to me, allowing me to escape from the first horror...
Which *Sniggers sniggers* my sisters did not escape...wahahhahaha..

The first - MOM cooked tofu with papaya on the steamer....

OH GAWD.....just hearing it is like *Whateverrrrr.....

An image of superrr soggyyyyy papaya (Those kind where the soggy parts spill our from the open top layer) all over the tofu...I sure hope she doesnt decide to add meat...Imagine it...Totally OMG.....

Oh wells, I was not that fortunate to escape the second, ever since we shifted to this baby house....

THIS TIME, mom cooked ju hua cha (chrysanthemum) with red dates plus meat!! Totally OMG...

Okay,,, recently, the food has been improving slightly....SO as I was hungry, I would naturally hope to see something that is pleasing right???

The chrysanthemum doesnt look like chrysanthemum...It looked like white fungus??? Hmm, nutritious....

Then, I took a sip...

My expressions went =D to O.O""""

My eyeballs nearly dropped out from its sockets as I cannot believe that the SOUP was actually made from CHRYSANTEMUM....I really scrutinise it all over and even got an answer from my maid as confirmation.... O. M. G

Or maybe I am the pantan one....Cause in my impression, chrysantemum was used for TEA....

Cause, when I googled, there is really such soup!!!
Its so called homemade, chinese soups???

Believed to be nutritious la....
Which i cannot give a say in it since i only drank like two to three mouthful of soup...
(the first was I WAS CHEATED...the 2nd and 3rd was to double confirm mahhh...Futhermore, to see the real effect, you gotta drink it long term...)

Waseh, remind me to eat my dinner or lunch after my sisters...WAHahahhaha....

On the side note, I hope the 2-3 mouthfuls will give me beautiful skin cause it looks like it would give me good skin and brighter eyes...wahahhahah.....

Ciao~~

2010-05-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

I hate having sisters.... =(((

There's this unspoken pressure by them....lolll....

Now I am feeling the heat of having to lose weight....lolll....
And the stress is making me eat more....Its like not working out for me....=((((
Instead, its having the reverse outcomes....=(((
I am so so so so so so sad.....

I want to have brothers instead....lolll....

=((((((((((

To my sisters, please change your genders...lolllll

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I want to start exercising but have not started....
Number 1: Cannot wake up and dont have the mood to do so...
Number 2 and the most crucial one: MY LOVELY SISTERS DOESNT WANT TO EXERCISE WITH ME...

(Hi to my sisters....reading number 2, please volunteer to exercise with me....Or my girl pals....lolll..... I am so so so saddddddd...lolll.... Ang yulin, swim with me? Serena Ang....book the tennis court???)))

* A note to Serena = I am not even hinting...I am already putting it out blandly in words...lol

Actions count alot ahhh...muahahhahahhahhahaha....I will than know the importance of me as a sister in your heart....wahahhahaah
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Pssttt...Serena....my roomieee...thinks I am crazy now....

Probably the ample rest that I have is the reason being it....wahhahaha....
Some people dont really need that MUCH rest to feel truly energised but I DO!!!
<*Nods head and put both hands up.....>

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Dad woke me up today....while I was having beautiful dreams during a nap.....
WHY?
Because dad steamed fish today and he was freaking proud of it....
He POUNDED on my room's door and in a tone of urgency, hurried us to the living room...
"HURRY up if not there will be no more fish left....."
*Roll eyeballs..
I thought it would be a small fish...BUT IT WAS A BIG FISH....occupying 2 steamers...
Cheyyyy....

Like a small kid, he kept turning his head back to watch my expressions while eating his FISH....

"Hao ci ma???" He kept asking, like a kid eager for praises...
"Not bad la..." I replied, successfully keeping my face straight...
"Not bad means what? VERY GOOD OR OKAY only??" He asked again, his face beaming with excitment...
" Urmmm....why must you ask the extremes???" I burst out in helplessness...and walk away from him....

Urmm...I am stingy with my praises huh....so, if I were to praise...It would be like gold found on the street...lol~~

(I aint proud of that..hee heee)

Anyway dad kept monitoring how much fish I have eaten because he was so worried that I would gobble the whole fish down...=.=

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Okay...I will expect to see lotsa Korean stars coming to our sunny island in JUNE....
Out of all, I guess the ones that make me eager to welcoming them are probably SUPER JUNIORRR and UKISS??? (I am naming half of them already...lol)
haha...cause I aint that familar with BEAST....
maybe i will be more interested in them after watching their variety shows or so? Because at the moment, I only recognise 3 faces...well, in fact if they were to walk past me, probably 1 only??lollll

That's how bad I am....

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I AM LOOKING OUT FOR A JOBBBBBB!!!
PLEASE DROP A PURRRRFECTTT JOB FROM THE SKY, LORD...

Thank you very much...

With lotsa love and hugs,
Charlene

2010-05-28T00:05:00.000-07:00

i am tired of showing unnecessary concern...

2010-05-07T22:20:00.001-07:00

its the 5th day in Korea now....

Had a blast yesterday....

Truthfully, we have over exceeded our budget...but who cares.... The moment now is just so worth remembering... =)))))))

Love the life here....we get to wake up at our own comfortable timings....and shop late in the night...Purrrrfecttt for night animals like us...haha!!!

The weather is also cool!~ though it can get quite cold sometimes, it is wayyy betterrr than staying in an oven like place....hahha...

We do not sweat at all, regardless of how much distance we walk....hahahahah

The first experience staying in a hostel is also great!! we felt that it was wayyyyy betterrr than staying in the hotels...At least, it is very homely and we have alot of facilities and privacy....hahaha

The downside is - battling with cold/hot waterrrr everyday in the cold environment!!

Love the milk here too!!!very random but we tried all the various types of milk in the supermarket and found them very fresh!! AHHHHHH.....the authentic korean food here is also awesome...Thought that Singapore korean food is quite terrible in comparison....hahahha....But both are good...Kimchi~~ =))))))

Many places that we can still explore and the city is still very much alive till 6AM in the morning...Btw, the sun rises at around 4AM in Korea....Which is about 3AM in Singapore timings.... When we return from shopping, the sun is already rising and we sleep with the sunshine...hahaha...

Dont wanna look for the day that I have to return....

After the korea trip, Hongkong next month!!! =))

(Broke....money fliesss....) =((((

2010-04-16T20:50:00.001-07:00

I think that i lost my soul somewhere today...

Feeling really blur today...

Cooked instant noodles in cold water....

& tried to eat it without a fork & spoon....

darn....

I am fricking slpy...

& hunger is not making it any better....

Char Kway teow...I want my char kway teowwwww.....

I heard that the char kway teow is super good....lollll

Shall get it ltr...@ lunch break.... =)

2010-04-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

Will be leaving this damn place.

They made an attractive offer...but I declined it....

The prettier it is, the scarier it gets...

Thankfully...I think I make the right decision...

It is definately right for me to go...

My loneliness knows no boundaries...

I have this upsetting feeling that just makes me feel that in this world there might just be no rightful place for me...

Ultimately,
its just me...

2010-03-27T01:43:00.000-07:00

In less than a month's time / in a month's time, I will be getting out of this damn place that is full of hypocrisy.

Fuck...i just cant wait la...I am just enduring this whole place like a pathetic soul just because I need the money badly, in order for me to enjoy to the max in Korea.

Poor Sharifah. In order to pay for her school loans and etc, she have no choice but to stay in this damn freezer (The company is freaking cold like a fucking freezer).

Already, the job scope sucks. The people inside the damn office sucks more. In order to survive in this workplace, you would really have to work hard not for the job but at curry favouring the heads. Which is totally ridiculous. I think that Sharifah and I are already stepping on their fugly toes by being nonchalant of everything and ignoring them at times, venting our frustrations and anger.

Yes, I dont deny that we are partially at fault.

But the things that they showed us are unbearable to us at times, wrecking our mentality and will to stay in the company. All we just see are a group of weakings that deserve no respect at all!

After graduating from university, I always envisonise us (the grads) to be well rested after a period of time and freshed to work with all the drive and passion. However, this isnt such a case, though I aint sure why am I rattering this at the moment.

The superiors at work are not always on time in terms of breaks and work timings sometimes. They have the habit of practising favourtism and always look to suppress the voice of the weaker ones. Fuck right??In what manner can they do that? BUT sadly it just happens.

It was only a few days ago that sharifah and I found out that in the new batch of recruits (Which includes us), one of the newly recruited employee does not have the same fair equal things that we have to do. We felt that it was unfair, but we were unable to voice it out since it was supposedly a secret and by voicing it out, we would land the person who gave us this secret into trouble. The reason why the newly recruited employee does not have to do as many stuff as we do is because she knows the supervisor's wife. Which is a fuck reason because this employee has a vast experience working in this company (She worked in other departments before). In addition, to add to our already opened wound, as long as you are the supervisor's favourite...u can do anything...such as getting leave though it is not supposed to be approved.

Suppressing the weaker ones are apparently their hobbies. I've just learnt that even applying annual leave is a hard thing for employees like the foreigners. Though they may apply for it like weekssss ago, they are unable to get the leave as the supervisors' favourite wants a leave on that day itself on perhapes, a week ago. I c.a.n.t s.t.a.n.d t.h.i.s.p.l.a.c.e......

Fuck...and they can be just so unhelpful....Shit la...i can rant and rant non stop....

I m freaking pissed with this environment but i got to hang on there...

damn damn damn...i wish i can actually complain but there are no avenues to complain to...this is jus hell filled with corrupted people....

2010-03-13T04:22:00.000-08:00

I NEED A DIET!!!

ROARRR

Ive been eating non stop...Debbie and Alice were so amazed with my eating capabilities...
Not to mention, the colleagues who are facing me everyday!!

Plus...I rarely move about!!wahahaha...

I can be so lazy to even get my lunch...I would rather wait for people to da pao for me so that i can watch "tv" on the com...shuckksss....

I cant be that lazy!!!! Andrew was like saying that at the rate of my laziness, my bum can grow biggerrrr.....tsk tsk....=(( ...

Shinee's in Singapore...shall give it a miss...There are wayyyyy too many people....Dont think that with my height I am able to see anything...unless I q UP wayyyy earlier....Plus....the air will smell bad cus I m short...=((((

Anyhow....Good luck to fans seeing them....3K pple squeezing together to watch a showcase which I suspect its free standing laa!!!

I wanna see KEY...

Anyhow, I will be going for JGS, JS/JH event!!!MY FAV ACTOR/SINGER from Korea...woot woot...I think that he's awesome....!!!!

I will be heading to Korea for approximately 2 weeks in may...A travel with my darings....F&E...Super looking forward ...Chris gave me some suggestions as to places that I may want to go on top of my own research....& I can just say its freaking exciting...

I am just waiting for Rebecca and zuer to come back from Korea to give me more places that I can go to...wahahhah~~

I m so god damn slpy now...Thanks to JGS....
wahahaha....

I think that...
Ican be a love consultant soon! =D

2009-11-12T04:51:00.000-08:00

I should stop shopping in Etude house...
Been there for two days with different people...& each visit lasted for about an hour!!!
lol!!!
I like that place...Cause its very girly and princess-C..Also, there's my favourite!--Freebies!!HAHAHA (Aunty spirit rox!)

Went to scool the past few days and there's this interview stimulation thingy going on tomorrow...Honestly, I think that this was uncalled for...In FACT, the WHOLE module is so redundant, in my own opinion (& in many others!)...
But YET, This module must be completed....if not we cant graduate..=(( (SO SO SO STUPID!)

I-ya....

We still got to think of qns that are interesting, serious and witty...
I-yoh...Its so stupid...If we aint placed into groups of unknown people, I will not even bother thinking of qns for tml...
(I am quite paiseh if i embarrass myself with a qn that i think is nt bad but lame and stupid to others!keke)
=PPP

Aniwae, this will most likely not happen in real life interviews...Tsk tskkk

Even though I am alil tired currently, I am going to persist to read spoilers and watch ep 12 without subs of you are beautiful..My mr Jang...=))))

Just used a facemask from Skin food --The sesame one...Tara got its sample for me to try...
When I put it on my face, my family members were laughing at me la!!!
Cause there's alot of sesame seeds!!! Hahaha!!!
I look very molelee all of the sudden...
Dad laughed and told my mom that I am pimply!!!
I am la!! But not to that extent!!!Summore they are black in colour!!!

My mother is colour blind...She asked me if the sesame seeds were green tea...Cause it looks green to her!!lol!!

I hope next week comes true!! =)))
Hope that DBSK will not split up!!!Hope for good news! =)))

金俊浩-- 我爱你 (its nice to hear =))) Expected from the other Mr. Kim!!!! ;)))
Afterall, he's trained by his brother in vocals!! hahah!! =))))
Hopefully, he release his full album soon! =))
Waiting to hear more good songs~

I am so bored now...Rawrrrr!!
Shall source for more entertainment now...haha~

2009-11-08T04:19:00.000-08:00

Exams are over!!!!
YAY!!!=))))))))

But!!

I didnt do well...and I guess there is a possibility of failing certain subjects...
Really hope that I will not flung any of the subjects...(I dont wish to go back to school and having to mug from exams again...I hate studying!!)

=((((

Anyway...Dad announced that we will be shifting house again!!This time it is confirm!I guess he was really disgruntled over the fact that the first qian he got from the temple prevented him from shifting house...So, he went a second time, together with my grandparents to ask Guan ying again! This time, Guan Ying said that we can shift house....lol!!!

Now, its the freedom of attending school (like I did, anyway)....
But its also the time that I have to get tied down by a job soon...

Since I am really tired currently, (shagged from the late night last minute muggings and partially due to the nice weather these days that are making me tired and lazy easily) I think I should give myself some time to rest...=)))))

Anyway, I will be busy packing my stuff while watching loads and loads of television!!
haha...

Dad's going taiwan....I asked him why he didn't bring us along...And he acted like he didn't hear me!! =((((
I wanna go overseas!!!!I wanna go and play and see different places!!!lol

SO SO SO BORING!!

I need an airticket overseasss!!!! =/

P/s cant wait till dec arrives! =)

2009-10-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

One paper down....

Since today's a thursday, one more subbed episode of you are beautiful should be up! I was super uber excited laaa just cause this show makes me excited and happy all the time...So I rushed home, was even thinking of taking a taxi home just to watch the episode...loL!!!The crazy fan girl in me cant help but gush everytime Jang Geuk Suk comes on screen maa...Hes a freaking talented person, a freaking goofy person in life, a freaking good looker, a freaking good actor with loads of expressions that conveys straight to you and he oozes out all kinds of charisma!! AWWW, hes purrrrrfecttt!!!LOL!!XD His acting just blows me like that!!

But alas, the videos won't uploaded and is uploaded like much later...The chinese subs in youku is taking a humpty long time to load and its testing my patience...AWWW...its a right decision not to take a taxi back home than..lol....

But subbers are all great, especially since they are taking the effort to sub the videos for language-idiot people like me!!hahahah

I guess I would still take some time off tomorrow despite me having to mug for the next examinations to watch the show...Even though I am super worried about the MC test...=((((
Shit shit shit

I think that I am able to watch this drama many many times, just like how my girl had delighted me...Coincidentally, both scripts were writen by the same people...After my exams, I am going to seek out all shows writen by these people and watch all of them since i have a good impression of them and their wacky, out of the box humor....

My body is so so so shagggggg.....
The mindset to be hardworking and start studying is not there...
Thoughts of the days after the examinations keep flashing and distracting me...
But I guess I have a goal now...As in the things I would like to do and to achieve after examinations...So I aint directionless anymore, I guess...
Still alittle apprehensive cause I am always frickle and decisions just sway sometimes, accidentally.... =))))

Tara, Sharifah and I were talking about graduation cerenomy (already!!!). Kinda disappointed that graduation cerenmony is alittle urm, cheapskate???since this graduation ceremony maybe some last cerenomy, it should be grand and memorable, in our opinions...Maybe, they could have done a survey to test market....lol

AWWWW....SO SO SO FREAKING TIRED BUT UNWILLING TO LEAVE THE COM BECAUSE OF TV SHOWS... =(

Iris is barred from showing online now...=((

I havent even started!!!=(((( On the other hand, it may be a good thing that I havent started...=)))))

Also, Jaejoong's show, Heaven Postman is coming out soon!! =))) Nice! After exams, one more show on my list!! =DDDD

Maybe, I should work as a drama or flim critic...Probably this line suits me...Since I love to share my opinions about the show....hahaah!!!

Not moving house anymore cause of supertitious reasons!!hahaha...Its shocking, jus drop us offguard like a bomb yesterday...Oh well, Pros and cons...No feelings since I havent even made efforts to lift a finger to pack my stuff....

The worst victim is mommy who have started packing and have already send some of the boxes over to the other house consistently everyweek...imagine her reaction...She had to give away her beloved plants and now, she cant take them back!!!hahahahah!!!

Oh wells,
Other than that, my life is pretty mudane now.... =////
I am suffering from exams.... =((((

2009-10-15T05:31:00.000-07:00

hmmmm....
been out quite alot though I am supposed to be mugging for exams...

Thanks to those who remembered my birthday though this is coming quite late...It was awesome!!! ^^

I am quite sad actually, that I have to give halloween a miss this year due to exams...EVEN THOUGH, I do not CELEBRATE halloween...I ve always wanted to celebrate halloween but never got a chance to do so...I wonder why...

I always envisionise a party full of my friends wearing halloween costumes and partying in a western manner...like those scenes seen in movies and theatres uhhuh?...LOL!!! But I think it will not happen, ever, in this lifetime...lol!

Wanted to be caught in the atmosphere of halloween nevertheless...so I jio-ed some people to night safari since there was an event going on there...

But alas, I did not make it there!!=(((((((

Well, well, it doesnt matter... Maybe I am only fated to play next year on the 31st of October????LOL!!

I just realised that there are quite alot of people birthdays this month...

Celebrated Andrew's birthday yesterday with the esplanade people....Though I aint close to them, well, at least, they are a nice bunch of people...=)))

Weili & I went out after Andrew's birthday celebration and we enjoyed this really cool and awesome live band from US...They were freaking cool...Its a pity that they will not be in Singapore for long??I suppose???
Its the first time, I thought ...... are cool!!^^ One and only exceptional time!!!^^
lol!!!Its damn rare laa!!!!

At this point of time, someone is enjoying the time in BKK...ROAR!!!!I wanna go overseas badly too....=((((((

Anyway, You are beautiful this show is damn damn damn nice!!!Omg la...it only came out 3 eps and I am hooked onto it...AND AND I just cant help laughing and smiling at the screen like an idiot...Its really one of the best dramas for me so far...woot woot....I love ittt!!!!

I so so so heart the cast and all la...

I wish that they will get better ratings so they can consider extending this drama series and that their eps will come out faster though there is already a fixed timing for it...=////

After my exams, it will be chiong tv for me!!whahahahahhaha...though i am already still watching tv!!!lol~~~

tada~~~ =DDDD

2009-09-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

The other day my group members and I while doing our GM project were talking happily about human wastes....sharing about what we heard from others and our own experiences...wahahhahah....

Did you know that a person who is healthier should have shit that are green in colour and float?WAHAHAHA....Seriously....*hands down*

This is seriously one of the days that I felt that people in my school could be quite crappy and nice to talk to... And this is probably the fun and more interactive type of group that I enjoy mixing around with....(I dont mean the shit topic but as in there were other topics that we could just talk about during the other project meetings, I suppose) Its a pity though, that school's nearing to an end and here I am, finding myself able to properly mix and fit in with this particular group of people...

I always felt that the people in school are probably people whom I just can't really connect well to because sometimes, I just don't get their jokes or what they are trying to tell me sometimes and it made me felt like a nobody and all...(Probably its just me...I can't really connect that easily and it takes a humptee long time for me to open up.. But...well, I don't think I am the only one feeling this way) I don't know how they feel about me too as a schoolmate.... Anyhow, it boils down to the point sometimes, where I felt school was just probably tara, sharifah and me...

Yes...It kinda got to a negative side...With us indulging in self pity sometimes....

I kept whinning and lamenting on the happier and fun days that I had in poly..And it made me appreciate my days in poly too... So, whenever I see any familar looking faces from either my poly or secondary school, I am so SO SO delighted and there's this sudden sense of relief which I have no idea why....

Its probably because, I ve never allowed people to properly know me??? Or I ve never gotten to the point where I just am so interested to know more about them?? Andy thinks that its my attitude that caused me such misery in my uni days because he said that I probably am not interested and when something/an event that i dislike occurs, I would not give it another chance to find out more about it....

I have totally changed...As in my outlook on this certain aspect since I graduated in Poly and have remained in the comfort zone since than....

But who am I to choose?

I attended this module once, and they adviced us to treat everyone as a tip of an iceberg....because everyone is simply different and unique....

After attending this module, I was so inspired to change on my outlook in this aspect....
LOLL

Which I have no idea is a success of a failure up to now...
But I think coupled with more rest and all, I felt that my character had lighten up more and has become more cheery...

Maybe I am too wary over the people around me sometimes that my defense against them are high...

Sometimes, I feel people close to me are making a mockery out of me in groups..which I don't feel like going on here...
I had seriously consider the people around me, thus, I consider this as an upsetting event...

But its okay right? As in, I don't really know how to elaborate on this further here...

Sometimes, I wonder if the people who I opened up to knows me and if I really do know them....

Everyone's just putting a front for everyone else in this world...I think...

Ahhhh....

I enjoy talking to people but at times, I am just sick of it...

I hate the false world outside and just simply love to enjoy in my own company sometimes...However, it also wants me to probe further to know the different sides to it.....

How contradicting....

I just have this dark side and knowing me...I am just negative.... I should really treat everyone as a tip of an icebergggggg

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2009-09-21T04:39:00.000-07:00

Kyaaa~~~~

This picture makes my face smaller....and I look fricking skinny....I likeeee~~~

Just got a call from Uncle Low and omg la...I totally forgot about my driving lesson today!!!

WAHAHAHA!!

Lucky uncle low said that we can change it to another day if not I think I will have to rushhhh like crazyyyyy....

Wahahahaha

Weather is so nice today! Its especially nice when we get to stay in at home....

What to do???Zai nu rox!Wahahahah

I am fricking cranky today..Thanks to the amount of sleep I had over the past few days I guess..

HEY!

I deserve it...Since I have been staying up late the days before...

Oh man...I really hope that the eyebags that I had have become lesserr....Seriously, Its Fricking bad....

Even tara who had seen it commented that it was really terrible...I never had such huge, enormous, gigantic ahhhh what so ever that describes huge in the dictionary eyebags before!!!

Even when removing my makeup I get a shock all the time!!!

HAHAA

I thought that I did not remove properly!!!cause my eyebags look like eyeliner...That kind of black that is being smudged!!!

lollll

Hopefully, I will not have a chance to have such "beautiful" eyebags again luhuh....lolll

Was so shagged but revitalised once again....

Hopefully, I won't run out of energy!!

Cause when times are boring and it gets to the point where tiredness seems more prominent, its always good to have an energy pill around...

(If ya know what I mean!!! heheeh)

I seriously, duperly wish that all will be well....(constantly wishing for that huh...Shall not harp on it else, I will really age and be an old granny in times to come...)

Cha!!!

I think I am really on the loose now....so I think i should log off le if not this whole entry will be full of rubbish!! =DDDD

2009-08-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

happy birthday ANG SING YEE, SERENA!!!

NAH!!!

later you say I dont wish you....I still want you to wish me on my birthday de hor....later no one wish me...I will look so pathetic...WAHAHAHAHA

Don't have a nice picture of you and I together lehh!!! So I don't wanna post it out...
If you give me the aust trip pix, it prolly wun be this case...wahahaha... Cause your hp camera phone very lao ya in taking our pictures...=X

Okay laa....

Just hope that you can have a memorable day today and have lotsa fun okay...

^^

2009-08-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

Met up with Kexin and Shimin the other day..
Was a superrrrrr impromptu meeting with them la...cause Shimin just "graB' anyone that she can see online the previous day...haha...
Even though we have known one another since our secondary school days, its been quite a while since we met up with one another...

Because of that absence and some other matters that happened during that time....I kinda developed other ideas to our friendships...
I once told Tara and Andy...My logic for my friends are simple...
I don't have any best friends...simply because, different people get close to me at different points of time that makes me develop different thinking and feel for these people...
As long as I can get along with you and there is nothing that we cannot talk about, I consider you as my circle of close friends...As simple as that...
Once in my circle of close friends, you will always be my close friend in my terms....
I know we are close, but how close at that point of time is a different matter....

Tara thinks that my thinking is weird...and i aint sure if my thinking is clear for anyone to understand afterall everyone has different kinds of perceptions...ahaha

She couldnt see why I feel that way laaa but its really based on feelings!!

I wonder if others feel the same way as I do laa....

I confessed alittle of how I felt to Kexin... I don't know how much message was interpreted the way I wanted it to be....cause I stopped halfway or less than that??

Its not that I Want others to go accordingly to how I felt...but no one appears to be voicing out any of what they think and I just so happen to have such feelings boiling inside me that I gotta get it out of me...And tada....

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Enough of this...I rather not be writing so much of this... I hope to be able to voice it in an understandable and appropriate manner to these people instead if I have to.... =)

On the lighter note,
Miss Ang yulin is mad over Nickkhun now...and I can announce it as obsessed!!!
lmao...
Andy helped me ta bao some stuff from his side laa!!!
HAHAHA...
Useful stuff!!!I wanna see it can!!!
also, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to SINGAPORE....=)))
44 yrs le!!! =))))

This is very random, but I hope that there are more budget airlines next year...lol =DDD

2009-08-04T08:54:00.000-07:00

I am on a looney mood...Weird eh?Since I am supposed to feel very tired since i have very little amount of sleep!!! ^^

Okay!!

MC project isnt progressing that well...Prolly have to redo the parts since it is also not in line with the lit review that have not been given to us by the other group members...

Sat- went out with Weili, xiuhui, jiaying and evon...
Weili and I on the cab...complexion looks damn nice here la...wish that it is like that can!
Us without Jiaying- She arrives later...~~
WE sucks at looking shocked!! LOLLLL

Because of food, weili actually made a dear mistake of not seeing WB....!!!!
But its okay!!!Afterall, I guess the session after has a more precious experience as compared to the latter... =))))
We had fun!! =)))

Got to know Milly, Michelle and Alan through these sessions...
Was interesting at some point cause we were stuck at a certain junction and there was this cute military guy giving signals as to where the car should move...
After the instructions, we immediately spazzed about it like no one's business cause he's REALLY CUTE!!!("He has dimples!!!"Quotes weili)
Hahhaha, I stick to my point that guys look amazingly better/good in uniforms...=))))))

After that, headed to Phuture with the girls...
Okay la....with them, its a sure fun thing...so there is no need to talk about it...cause its basically great!!!!!

Mon-Was supposed to do project with tara and sharifah...BUT, we did not successfully do the project la....We didn't had the mood to do in school...so we kinda shifted locations...

The locations were all sucky even the last location- Macdonald at King Albert's park...
In MacDonald....Looked really shagged cause my eyeliner were all smudging!!!Tara helped me click the webcam to let me see how my side view look like!!
Tara and Sharifah have their side view photos too!!! ^^!!
WE are all very SHAG!!hahaha...even though we were just talking rubbish~~ Stupid sharifah...hide behind us so our face looks bigger!!! =((((

We ended up making this project session into a talk cock session with alittle bit of camwhoring...
HAHAHA...

We were all thinking what we can do when we visit tara and her friends laaaa...!!WAHAHAH

I want to go to see "Wuchun"....hahhahah <----To Tara!!!

And....I love the food that I eat today!!=))) Very random....but I am satisfied!!whahahahaha

P/s, Sharifah';s mom also love that cake kay....& Tara is suay today....its not her day!!muahaha
Hope that DBSK legal case will be over soon!! =))))
Rainbow after the rain???Is that the phrase???
AHHH....
Whatever....
Ciao!!! ^^ looney modd, looney post...=))))))

2009-07-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

I am back!!! I wish my hair is not that flat as in it can be more pom pom and messier like the picture above!!!hahahah!!!

Okay....met up with weili and xiuhui recently for some "shopping" in PS...There's a japanese fair there and the ~~food~~ fruits there looks good... so are the prices la huh...Think the fair is there till 16 July....

The lovely, lovely peaches that got me craving for after seeing them cost 33.30 bucks for two!!!waliew...damn damn ex!!! =(((((

I don't really see such peaches in the supermarkets!!! =(((((

(I so wanna eat those peaches!!)

The watermelon alone is a killer!!hahaha...Pricing about 200 bucks!!! haha...(Anyway, I aint a fan of watermelons!! I hate their tiny seeds!!So mafun~)

Camwhoring in the toliet...before we get our stuff....
(we wanted to show that weili has two horns on her head, and we are the horns....but i guess we failed...;/)

(heart this picture..cause we are all doing our own stuff while the camera snap...hahaha...cute la cause we all look so happy...i think...! => )

<---short, shorter, shortest! ~~(Really according to height!)~~

Weili eating, but that does not deter us from taking our own pictures...whahahahaha

The couple behind wanna take a photo with us too!!hahahahha!!cute eh!

By the way, these pictures doesnt show my green contacts!!! =((((

I only wore the green contacts for a day and i can't wear them anymore...;(

I have to throw them away thanks to some unforseen circumstances....

Aishhh...nevermind....

Lucky I still have a golden black one....(which looks like dark brown to me...Urmmm...)

Havent try the contact lense yet...really wonder if it will suit me....

I cant wait for my fringe to grow...its just too short straight one me...& I aint that use to it...=/

Days when I have longer fringe...& darker hair...(hahah...not obvious in the pictures)

gotta get ready to get out soon! Tada~~

2009-07-01T05:37:00.000-07:00

I will be starting school next week...=((((

Am so not looking forward to it...=(((

I foresee a super busy semester though i slack alot throughout my holidays..not seeking jobs as usual...=((((((

AHHHHHH....

& i am getting drained of energy for I don't know what reason....

Gotta organize the timetable and all cause there are other commitments to do other than just school alone...
Esplanade wise, there are some modules that requires complusory attendence and I may take some outside lessons. On top of that, there are bound to have many many projects from school...I really wonder how much time i can fork out for happy...=((( But I will definately try to fork out time for him...just that I have to think about it if I wanna meet up with my friends...

AHHHH........

I really gotta look and organise!!! & to check with my sisters timings....=(((

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On the other hand, happy is back!! =DDDD like duhhhhh~

Uncle was nicer than auntie from hell...(Uncle not from hell, auntie is still from hell =X)

Shallnt elaborate on it...I am just glad to see happy with us...=)
(plus, he has been shitting alot recently...)

Was spending quality time with him =)) & the other sisters when we brought him and BB out for walk...

Till now, he still can't mingle around with BB..Ivy told me that if BB were to leave, its best not for them to mingle together since they will have memories of one another and thus, seperation will be an issue for them..

Poor things...BB really wanna play with Happy but that anti social dog just refused to do so...

I hope that things will work out fine...Since daddy is still unaware of Happy's existance at the moment...haha...urm...I hope that he can see how genuine and sincere we are in keeping happy..
Furthermore, I think that Happy will be more obedient since we will send him for training soon..
I think the earliest date is Jul 16???

Aishhhh...I Dont want school to start!! =(((

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2009-06-23T02:37:00.000-07:00

Had a happening week last week... =S

Many thanks to Andy and his bro, Terry, Happy is coming back to us next week.. (If the uncle did not lie to us and make things difficult in the future)

All this unhappiness is caused by miscommunication and many parties involved...Am so glad that this matter can be resolved... (I still don't like ah ~~suay~~ shui >.<)

Really grateful to Andy and Terry cause they are not obligated to help us all the way, which they did....Aish...I am so not good at expressing my gratitude la...haha....But you know can le!! lol

(BUT, no thanks to negative comments...XD its not appreciated...haha!!!)

Actually, another problem is now surfacing as Happy is on his way back...Shallnt harp on that cause I don't really know and probably havent organise my thinking... =/
~~I think too much!~~

As usual, father's day was celebrated with the relatives...I don't really like such gatherings because it seems like an act...I don't really know how to explain it...but to me, i feel like we gotta smile, act courteous when we do not exactly admire certain relatives just because it is only right to do so...I especially hate it when there are some redundent advice that is given to us by certain people when they themselves do not prove themselves worthy of such "golden" advice.

Prove it to me than, that you are worthy...>.<

On the other hand,
Ah gong had to rely on walking aids to help him walk this time...I can't imagine why people can be weaken so fast...as in, where did these weakening elements come from...How did they even evolve????
Heard from mama that now that ah gong is out of hospital, ah ma is admitted into hospital due to stroke...I think... =.=
Everything requires money money money...
If only....money is not neccessary and health is forever! (in my dreams la huh)

Anyhow, after the celebration..Tuna (Serena...=X), Tuna's bf, yulin and I went to watch land of the lost...The show was not too bad...Quite lame..haha!but my kind of lame la...lol

I WANT TO EAT DURIANS!!!& I pray for a worry free world! =)

2009-06-14T03:25:00.001-07:00

Several hours has passed...

The rotten feeling just sink even more...
Guilt, unhappiness, helplessness and anger are mixed inside...
So many feelings and many complications....

We must do whatever we can right now...

But the starting point is blurry & there are many considerations...

2009-06-13T11:01:00.001-07:00

I feel like strangling those mother fuckers....

Fucking nahbehs...

even their religion cannot save them....

chao cheebye...step all over us this time round...fucking shit....

A month ago, happy left our house because my parents didn't wanted him around because of our fault-- we spoilt him being new owners, hence resulting in a spoilt and fierce doggy...also partially because we were shifting house and blah....

We naively thought that happy was in safe hands and we thought that we could trust the "current owners" because he was sis's bf sis bf employee...and there were assurances that these people have no problem handling dogs as they have a dog before...

However, that was not the case when we visited happy today....Gone was the days where happy look neat, tidy and presentable...in place was a dog who looked haggard...He seemed to aged suddenly and I am serious over this statement....

His fur doesnt feel like fur anymore, it felt like some dead and limp soft toy...his fur is too long and they were poking his eyes...His eyes were full of watery eye dirt... This is especially wrong in happy's case because he has an ingrown eyelash, hence being prone to eye infection...

There are many infections that Happy is exposed to...

This was happy with us

This is happy NOW....

TWO ENTIRELY DIFFERENT LOOK!

Because of that, we talked to the "current chao cheebye owner's" kids, telling them that Happy requires grooming, on top of that, they need deworming pills, which, apparently, they did not feed to Happy. The kids that suggested that we can bring him to grooming since their mother will be going to this place nearby and there is a pet shop..They also added....we will be bringing him grooming later!

Everything was fine at that point.... We didn't even realise that that was just a calm before the storm...

The fucking aunty asked the kind pet shopkeepers about the charges <---we thought that she would be the one paying since number one, she is older. number two, she is currently the owner and even though we wanna take happy back, we have not reached to an agreement.

The thickskinned aunty than went to do her groceries while yulin, eileen and I went to eat...I supposed her kids were constantly lingering around us to keep an eye on us....

TAda...the fucking scene than unfolded, something that you would probably only see on dramas...An exposure of ugly human nature....

We (Us and her kids) got of the car for happy...while she wanted to stay in the car....

SHE obviously want to stay in the car because of her refusal to pay for Happy...How can she be so niao when Happy is her pet...In that case, they aint fit to be owners....

After some thinking, we felt that it was not right for us to pay like that since they are making use of us..One of the exchange conditions made previously is for us to buy a new puppy (MUST BE YOUNGER THAN HAPPY, TOY BREED) to exchange for happy...Initially, Eileen bought BB to exchange for Happy....but In that state, who in the right mind will send a innocent puppy to hell??

We called the uncle to ask who is going to pay because if we are paying we expect happy to end up with us since we are also, trying to reason with them and negotiating with them...Its not the money that matters to us at this point...It was happy!!! Because we didn't wanted to be made used of, we lied that we didnt have enough cash....

We even thought of using money as the carrot stick...

The uncle wanted to pay the pet shop another day which was so wrong la...hello, others are operating business....If i am your boss, I tell you another month than give you salary, you happy meh...He seriously have some mental illness and has a brain, a size of a pea....

Sensing something was wrong, the shopkeepers tried to help us...

The aunty from hell stormed in and even scolded us in public...something that our mother will never even do too! What gives her the bloody right to fuckingly do so...Instead of raising my voice which I was highly tempted, I tried my darnest to reason to her...

She said this: "IF I KNOW WE ARE PAYING, I WILL BRING HIM TO THE FARM WHICH IS CHEAPER. " <----Wanting us to pay extra...because they assume that we are paying beforehand....

"IF HAPPY IS INFECTED, THAN WE WILL PAY." <---Only caring when Happy is infected???Or, given her character, save on the extra bucks and leave happy to die???

Apparently, she sees no use in reasoning...She got her daughter to bring happy to the car and stuff 27 bucks into my hands in a whirl like manner and left in a flash...At that point of time, sisters aint around me cause they were talking to the pet shop owners...

We heard that Happy was crying when we left him...and he was pleading for help...Instanteously, the three of us broke down because we imagined poor happy...helpless and defenseless... We also heard from the shopkeepers that this family is constantly seen in the area and they used to have a jack russell... only bringing him to groom once....At that point of time, the poor dog's nails were so long that they are bent... Are the inhumane or what?

Well, they have no idea what groom meant.. The little boy exclaimed, "WAH, SO UGLY NOW..."

Yes, I have no disgust nor predjuices against people who love their dogs with super long hair...what I am asking for is the basic grooming!!!!! That is not hard, isn't it?

Their ugly characters turn me off...it is hideous...

Afterthat, uncle from hell called my sister, which i answered...

He didn't wanted to give me a chance to talk...He turned tables around and kind of accused us that we scolded behind his fugly wife back which we did not... If we did that, we will admit...but at that point of time, our minds were preoccupied to the one that is dearest to us...We have no time to even think that fugly bitch...who in the right mind will think of her...Oh, they are just meant for one another...Purrrrfecttt....soon, their offsprings will have to find for the one who are equally as bad as them if they were to take on their parent's characters...Hopefully, its not in their genes, cause it is highly undesirable....

It was only after the incident and the phone conversation that we really wanted to scold them aloud... I think we are too civilised in handling matters like that...

Anyway, that fug continued rattering and rattering, to which I found hard to hear...ooohhh....that's one trait I found out about nasty people....Their voices are so muffled huh? And they like to hide behind one another's back...the nasty back...I tried very hard to control my voice so that it was polite simply because my values does not allow me to be rude to people who are senior especially...

BUT,

I couldn't take it....My hands were shivering from anger and I was so tempted to sprout vulgarities....I couldn't take it anymore...I yelled at him...it really goes to show how rotten he is because we are normally a more torelant group towards outsiders, especially, seniors...

Honestly, we are partially at fault because it is a hasty decision...BUT being previous dog owners and a cultured person (which they aint), they should know the time, the commitment that they have should they decide to keep a dog...

One phrase, if I ain't wrong, always touches me (It may contain inaccuracies but the meaning is there) : You may just treat this dogs as dogs merely, but to the dogs, you are everyting....

If not, for fuck do they call dogs as loyal animals...Is that even for fun??I highly doubt so...

To them, dogs are toys, probably not even to the level of a real dog...They are inhumane, totally devoid of feelings...

Selfishness will get them now where... The cold reality of the world hit me real hard and it is really harsh....

I fucking hate it when we didnt protect happy....

I fuckingly hate it because we didn't trusted people easily....

I fucking hate myself for being useless too because I cant do anything at the moment and I am fucking worried...

Happy deserves better...which we swear to provide and protect regardless of the many decisions ahead...

I hate the fact that we have no choice but to succumb into the evil plots...

I really hate myself...

I am useless and am a nobody...

2009-05-21T07:13:00.001-07:00

My name is Charlene, not charleen or sharlene or .... ....

I just realised today that mom and dad does not even know how to spell my name!

omg...

I really wonder who actually gave me my name...
haha~

2009-05-04T04:28:00.000-07:00

Papers sucks!!!!

ARGHHH.....

esp marketing...in the sense even if you study the main points, it will not come out...because the stupid examiner made some damn ridiculous questions...
"What did helen walton suggest to her husband...and what are kahn ideas..."

W.T.F...

It seems more like Hmt le leh...hello mr examiner...they are fucking "interesting" and "unexpected" questions huh?

Screw you...

AHHHH....It really comes down to all the niffy small details lehhh!!!

At least the other papers...that i aint that good at and is worrying whether it will have an all clear sign anot comes straight to the point.....

EWWW....

Disgusted over the blardy paper...

Furthermore, while studying for this damn paper..there is some disturbance from downstairs for TWO consecutive days...

Aunties and uncles singing at the top of the lungs as if there is no fucking tommorrow...IN MY OPINION, they sound like some slaughtered chickens....

I can understand if you sing for recreational purposes...BUT i blardy don't get the reason why must the sound volume be blardy loud for the whole estate to listen..IF YOUR VOICE IS FREAKING ANGELIC...perhapes it would be soothing....BUT like it or not...the aunties and uncles do not own such voices.....

Hello RC??YES...RC TO create such events for the residents...BUT are you seriously considering ALL THE RESIDENTS OR just the old folks in the estate??? Blardy irritating.... In that case, they could just go to the old folks home and sing their lungs out...

Fuckkk....It was intolerant and was fucking hell to hear their damn voices...Got really irritated and pissed...

Mommy had to go down twice to kindly remind them that there are students studying for exams...(Mind you, I aint the only one having exams...there are students who are taking mid term papers in the secondary school and the fact that the houses are all situated near the school means that there are surely a number of students isnt it??)

HOW INCONSIDERATE CAN THEY BE....

They even retorted back to my mom that it was an event...SO??WHAT a strategically positioned event huh???Please get a schedule and see that there are june holidays....If you want to make a din....SPARE A THOUGHT....

To think that you are an RC....

Fuck sia....

They only quieten for a while when the mp come...In my head, i am already thinking...what a sucker...Or could they even know how horrible their singing was that they were to ashame to perform infront of the MP??

Inconsiderate folks...I wish that when their offsprings were to study...there would be noises such as this to disrupt them....

On the other hand, due to the humid and hot weather...and the fried food that I had over the past few days, I am suffering from a bad sore throat, as well as a slight cold and a headache....

I cant wait till friday is over because it is the last paper...yet, I am worried because I have no idea on how to study the damn boring stuff....

After friday, I will hibernate....

3 days and 3 nights =)

2009-04-28T10:15:00.000-07:00

I wonder...

who will majority of the people love more...

Their parents or their off springs or their spouse?

Is there even such thing as loving any of this group more and why is that so??

If all the above options were to be caught in a fire or so...who would one save?

Taking away spouse...We love our parents...so will we to love our off springs...
Parents are the ones who love you, nurture you and you are grateful for that and when you become a parent yourself, you will probably appreciate the fact that your parents have brought you up and identify with them...

but off springs are people whom you will nurture and be protective over...How much pains will you have to have to have them...Each have a certain value and different type of love for it, I suppose other than family kind of love??Which value of love would be higher and have a greater space for tolerance??

I really wonder... .....

2009-04-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

I am tired...so tired..

And unhappy...

There's this sinking feeling inside me...constantly these days...

Human ties with one another are nothing but fragile and superficial at times...

Sometimes, I really love and cherish the times where there is no one else but a time for myself....
But we are sometimes forced to create/maintain these human ties...W.O.W....

Hello to the superficial world...=))))

let me be nothing but as superficial as you... =)))

God bless...

I aint expecting any good damn thing for my exams....
The battle is not finish yet...And before i return to the battlefield once again...I wanna surrender the white flag!!

A cert is extremely important...but...how much theoretical stuff do we need to use in real life when we could forget all the load of shit we have learnt in the past and do not apply them...OR we Don't even know how to apply them!!

My course isn't something that require all the god damn difficult skills such as software lessons for a design course...but its dead memorising...I don't see memorising all the god damn stuff will cause me to sharpen up my skills or know much before I enter a workforce....It requires more of experience....*scoffs*

Perhaps all the rigidness in business that will come later on in life comes from the education...Because, I believe it would have instill some kind of thinking in us- that we will not bother to take a few step forward from our safe zones... It will perhaps hinder some creativity in us that we have yet to exploit?? That's my opinion laa.....

But we still require the bloody cert....*haix*

Pressure...*scoffs*
People's way of looking at you....All comes from that!!!

hur hur...

Again...its often all the non living things that control us...Our mindsets are changed by the things we created...So ironic!! Why cant we be steadfast in what we want, what our thinking is...
Why is it that we can't achieve that much without a price??

I am shagged...no point going on....when you are feeling low, everything seems to be going badly...Everything seems to not work to your favour at all!!
Complaints complaints...hur hur...

These days there is alot of yuan qi in me....hur hur...
hopefully it will disseminate fast laaa!!!

I gotta still live on this world and this unhappiness in me will cause me to feel upset at all times...

*Would mars be a better place?hur hur....

2009-04-27T09:22:00.000-07:00

It seems as though no one is as eager as me to switch from a full time course to a part time one...

Honestly, why didn't I see the good points of part time in the past??To think that I would still get the same certificate from RMIT....& have lesser subjects, lesser school fees....

I am a very very lazy person!!!

=/

I wonder if i will still be able to attain my aim of switching to part time...

Maybe not too...because tara will be stuck alone in the class without Sharifah and I if we were to successfully switch to part time...

But I still harbour the fear of failing...simply because there is just NO momenturm for this semester... And there is no motivation AT ALL!!! I think I am a pretty lost soul with a blank stare difting in and out of this entire semester...

Tara and I both agree this semester is the worst out of the lot because we somehow forgot how to study...

I just pray that the markers will be lenient...

Our luck will not last forever given the amount of time we allocate for studies...

if the semester ends peacefully for us...I will try to make sure that we work at least harder than the previous semester...Afterall its the last semester for us....haha

Frankly, I don't enjoy this school at all...This school does not serve any meaning at all to me....=/

My examinations are not over....I cant wait for it to end though I would wish I have longer days of studying...My whole body and mind is exhausted and I badly need a rest...I wish for a short get away....

Haix....

The world is seriously ending!! >.<

I freaking hate this weather..Its crazy weather! Ciao~

2009-04-24T07:58:00.001-07:00

The school journey seems longer than usual!!!

Been walking to school with a heavy heart...

Stupid notes...Stupid subjects....too much to memorise and results in lack of sleep....

Actually, humans claim to study more to have more "shang qing xin" but it can be quite a torture...Unless, the subject is something that we like...

Its silly how humans invent things to torture ourselves and the mentality that they cultivate in us....Money for instance, could be motivating but a controlling factor at the same time...Its such an invisble yet mangetic force...

Its very sad....I love money but I am under its spell! Everyone is under their spell because nothing can be achieve without it...Even the basic needs have to be bought using money....

In a home...Money is even more an important factor...It controls so much!! The sole breadwinner has the most say because most of the things we needs come from him/her and we are "disabled" without it....Which is heartbreaking because opinions we have have to be kept inside sometimes with disagreements and reluctance.... If there is money, it could be a different case....It paints a beautiful life outside where everything can be achieved....

Relationships and all are so fragile with it....

Recently, I kinda dislike talking to my parents...
Suddenly, they seem so cold and heartless...
If there is emotions involved during the period of the Stay...
They will be unwilling to part...

"Its part of the genes.."

Right...

A wild beast can be tamed with the right methods too...Look at how a tiger can be tamed successfully...What more can be fiercer than the tiger and lions on the ground?

Why not say we really do spoil or inexperience and allow us the opportunity to learn...

Are chances even created or made?Or perhapes, in their dictionaries, it never existed....

Because they are seemingly unfeeling to me....

Tried to see it from their point of view...but ultimately...I feel that emotions and feelings over ride it all....and that could ultimately reach a solution....

But...The emotions and feelings they could have seemed farfetched....

I want to sleep...I am deprive of it....Could that be the reasons why I am rattering so much?!

2009-04-22T02:05:00.001-07:00

Happy is gone....in the midst of my preparations to my exams...it is a fucking saddening period because the presence that was once there is no longer there...

Everytime the neighbours walk past, there are no more barks...
There is no one else to share with me bananas anymore....
Even though he bit me earlier on....it was nothing...compared to the lost that is in me eversince i heard that he may have to leave....

I hope I hope he stays with a good family....because he really deserves it...Someone who will have all the time in the world and will give him full dedication and time for him...All the attention lavished onto him...

I hate the sinking feeling....

On the other hand....

FUCK U EILEEN ANG JIA WEI.... !!!!!!!!!

YES! I YELLED AT YOU TO PLACE HAPPY BACK!!!THAT WAS BECAUSE HE DESERVES PUNISHMENT AT THAT TIME AND LETTING HIM OUT IS NOT GIVING HIM ANY PUNISHMENT AT ALL!!!

YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKINGLY IS UNAWARE AT THAT TIME!!

THAT IS FUCKINGLY TRUE BUT!!!

DUE TO THE AMOUNT OF TIME THAT YOU HAVE LET HIM OUT AND ROAM AROUND FREELY WITHOUT PUTTING HIM BACK SHOWS THAT YOU MAY NOT PLACE HIM BACK AGAIN AS USUAL!!! FUCK YOU!!

letting him out and not placing him back will cause him to pee and shit outside- something that you are BLISSFULLY UNAWARE WHEN YOU ARE ASLEEP OR OUTSIDE--letting elena to clean the mess that could have been smaller...

YES...I NAGGED AT YOU THAN....BUT THAT WAS BECAUSE AFTER I HAVE STARTED THE BLOODY REASON...YOU DID NOT EVEN RESPOND NOR SAY THAT YOU ARE PLACING HIM BACK WITH FOOD....FUCK YOU...ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING PAST EXPERIENCES THAT MAKES ME THINK THAT YOU WILL NOT PUT HIM BACK!!!!

WHY!!! CAUSE IT ALL HAPPENED BEFORE...SO YOU DON"T FUCKINGLY ACCUSE WHEN YOU YOURSELF DID NOT STATE/GIVE A STATEMENT THAT YOU ARE FUCKINGLY GOING TO BRING HIM DOWN!

NOW FUCK YOU!!!EILEEN ANG JIA WEI...

You claimed you KNOW EVERY SINGLE SHIT ABOUT HAPPY!! DO YOU?
DO YOU EVEN REALLY KNOW???

YES!!!
I may not have contributed in monetary terms....THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I DO NOT CARE....I DID TRIED BY CLEANING HIS EYES SO THAT HE DOES NOT GET INFECTION AGAIN!!!
That did not happen only recently....when he first came and got eye infection...i cleaned his eyes too!! DID YOU KNOW THAT???

NO YOU DONT.....

IF YOU CLAIM YOU KNOW EVERY SINGLE SHIT!!!YOU WILL HAVE CLEARED AND BE INCHARGED OF HIM THE WHOLE DAY!!!

THAT IS WHAT I WOULD SAY YOU DESERVES TO KNOW EVERYTHING!!!!

UNFORTUNTELY, YOU LEAVE THE DIRTY JOBS TO WHOM? MAY I ASK?THE MISS KNOW EVERYTHING PERSON???

FUCK YOU ANG JIA WEI....

NOW THAT he;s gone...i have no wish to continue on with this arguement....

On the other side...

Do you know that by giving your bf the keys to our house is a wrong and irresponsible thing???

nO....I doubt you know it miss know everything...=))
BECAUSE YOU ASSUMES THAT EVERYTHING YOU DO IS RIGHT AND EVERYONE ELSE....

IS THE HOUSE EVEN YOURS FOR YOU TO DECIDE WHO HAVE EASY ACCESS IN THE HOUSE OR NOT?

Ask yourself...why are you so intolerant in this family....

Go ahead...

& you will know what a fucking shit you are...=))))You really sucks...=)

I will gladly tell it to you if i have to =)

2009-03-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

Something's wrong with msn and hotmail...I think!!!!

I am so sleepy but I cant sleep at the moment...

2009-03-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

I thought that everything was over.... ...

I thought that I could just give up... ...

But everything was proven wrong yesterday....

The day that seems so impossible....

But with all the familiar feelings that continue to kick in, it makes me very nostalgic....

I scoff at myself...for being helpless...

I laugh at my low confidence...

Is it my image that I really care about?

I listen to advices but do nothing about it...

My mind is active but my body and actions are stiff....

A cheery front but a complete wreck inside...

How ironic it is...

Maybe, I am just not assured that I can just be THAT....

I really tried but I am really like a primary school kid...

Being envious is no use at this point of time...

It hurts though I wish to say that it doesnt...

Perhapes its karma...

& I am still doing nothing about it...

How much do I not know and know is what that keeps me intrigued...

Till the day that it is solved,

I guess I will continue being the way I am....

Sorry to those who have faith in me...

Sorry to those that I have been bad tempered to...

I am just a wreck who doesnt stick to her mind.....

A useless and pathetic one.... indeed....

2009-02-28T00:52:00.000-08:00

EG is coming once again...

Not sure of the plans that will occur over the weekends but I am sure Weili will take care of them after her exams...HAHA...I shall just go along with the flow...

One SM and HR project down..but there are more to go!!

Next up is EG project...full of theories that seems like a load of rubbish to me..But...argghhh....what to do??Have to continue to grit my teeth and thicken my skin if I want to pass this semester peacefully...

I really have doubts over this semester...I think I am just SCREWED...really screwed...
Tara and I were actually toying with the idea of stopping school temporarily and continuing it the next semester...arghhhh
It just wouldn't work out...I know it... =(((

Its a natural instinct to work the way your body just tells you to...I don't know why but certain things are just fixtured the way it is for me and there is almost no way to change it...
Given my stubborn character and firm decisiveness to what I really want, its hard and close to impossible to change me. ...

I guess this stubborn trait runs in my family huh???

I guess that explains to why you are reacting this way....
I read the earlier posts with what the others have written and they have already spelt my thoughts...Thereby, I won't be dedicating this entry to it...I believe that i had already made clear on what I have thought before... and ultimately, I see no return...*signs*

My saliva has been wasted and I don't even try to talk about it now...
I just see it as a naive and foolish way of living but than again, some people derives the joy in the foolishness <---Which they have different perceptions of foolishness and this is merely my opinion....
Its your life la....

=)))

For me....my perception of life is different...
So I will definately lead my life THAT WAY!! =))))

2009-02-17T06:02:00.000-08:00

I wish to be with Rebecca, Zita and Zuer right now...

They should be in Korea at the moment, I think... And I was supposed to be there if there isnt many projects...aishhh....*whines*

ALL THE FUN...I can only experience it next year..
Temperature there is cold and winter clothes are so pretty...
I guess eating lots of food there will not hurt since the cold weather will help to burn off fats fast....

>.<

Nevermind!! Rebecca!Tell me your stories when you are back...ke ke~~

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I aint someone who will stay in a spot for long..
I think that after graduation, I would love to find for an overseas job...widen my horizons and to experience the different cultures out there....All will not be learnt but at least it is better than just staying there for a mere week or so...

Told mommy about it...
Told her that one day I will leave and will have to be independent about it...
She's not to keen on the idea of me leaving to a faraway place...away from home...
But that's me...
I am pretty determined...and I am willing to give up many things just to try...Cause not everyone does that!!
Afterall, I am still young and I don't wish to wait till 30 + to experience all that...
I don't want to lead a typical life....

Maybe I will have to work alittle in Singapore first..Or maybe there is an opportunity for me to just go straight overseas after graduation...
I have no idea...
Actually,
This is just my idea and I am very insistent on it...But, truth is..I aint sure if I am able to reach my goal...
Because it maybe tough but like what Andy has said, that if I am truely determine with it...I will be able to withstand its toughness...

I hope that this will come true...=))))
(infact it keep lingering in my mind...and this is further enforced by, admittedly, the palmist whom I saw....)

2009-02-15T23:54:00.000-08:00

Caught Break out in Esplanade yesterday!
The show done by I think Yegam and Sevensense Inc of Korea was worth watching, especially for people who like hip hop.

Break out is also combined with a clever sense of humor. Even a person like me with not much humor (Its not a good thing to have no humor) kept laughing over it...This goes to show urm, how humorous it was.... The whole audience were laughing also okay?

Its interactive, with them participating with the crowd...much to the crowd's delight....

Omg la...I am like still gushing over them and this prompt weili to say..."ehhh your new idols???Never mind, think they will still come again, they came last year!"
hahaha!!!
Its not that...but I cant help to be so so so impressed with them....
hahaha!!! Okay...I wanna catch any of this sort of production in future cause its just my type!haha!!!

KIMCHI~~ =))))))))

2009-02-14T06:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!

Like all the other years, there is no reason for me to celebrate this occasion... =)))

But its okay...
Cause I know that I will celebrate it one day eventually....=DDD
And when I do celebrate it, its really with someone I really really like and cherish...XD
So I will wait...
(Spoken like a true blue romanticist)

So, tada.....
I am supposed to spend my valentine doing projects. *signsss*
But, as usual, being the lazy bum or rather a shag and tired person, I fell asleep... BUT, I swear I am really tired okay....lol

Did palm reading in school yesterday.
I think that its pretty accurate..
During the session, I disagreed with some of the characteristics that he pointed out but my friends who were standing beside me were nodding their heads to what he was saying...
Well,
I guess, its because I don't really notice myself that much...
and my friends have noticed, discovered and pointed to me those characteristics that I thought I did not possess... =(((((

For example,
the reader said that I am a person who likes to whine (Sa jiao)...
Immediately, I opened my mouth to protest to what I thought wasn't a form of sa jiao and the people around me laughed and pointed to me that that is a form of sa jiao....

WTH... >.<
I don't really like to sa jiao cause its very disgraceful, in my opinion.
Perhaps, this could lead to the next point to which he said that I am a proud person...Maybe a form of sa jiao to me is a form of qu xiang (Surrender???) to me...
Therefore, I very much dislike being a sa jiao person...

It makes me feel weak....and I very much dislike it...

Since Tara says that she is changing herself, not to be that kaypoh anymore...(The palm reader said that being kaypoh, she will involve herself in scandals.ha ha) I think I can change the characteristic of mine... =))))

I think I will like it better... ^ ^ hee hee

I told my family about my palm reading session and my mom kinda chided me...cause to her, its a waste of money and she says not to believe in it...
BUT,
I have to confess that I can't help but to ponder over it cause its pretty amazing to me...

Ah...

Tara is considering to book another appointment with the palm reader just cause she finds it amazing...
Andy told his bro about it and his bro booked an apt with him...
And its tempting me NOW to know more....Aishhh...

I am so so so amazed....haha~

P/s...Oh, plus, the reader told me that I am most likely to get together with a foreigner and perhaps, migrate overseas in future...Oh, how cool is that....XDDD
I like the idea of that...=DDDD

2009-02-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

Its Pictures Time...HOHOHOHO
The valuable stools that accompanied us for more than 6 hrs that day. =)
Rebecca, my roommate in Thailand =DDDSM town concert Venue...The stool is so outstanding...tsk tsk
<---It was so freaking hot...See that umbrella??? lol~

In the meantime, us posing with the celebs posters outside the stadium...lol...didnt post the others cause these grps are the main reasons for our attendence in the concert...=P

OF COURSE, who will forget about DBSK....hee hee...Rebecca and I kept "fighting" for Junsu..LOL..ehem....

Zuer and Zita...I had a picture of that too...but my face is too round in the pic! lol

I have to post these pictures up to show Rebecca's affection for my stool and because she looks cute posing with Ri Lin's picture...lol

The queue for the concert is long....So is the toliet...groans***(had to wait for a long time under the hot and scorching sun before it was my turn!)
<----This is the queue ONLY for our side....
Inside the stadium
<----"borrowed" this pair of sheep ears for awhile from the fellow Singaporeans who was there in Thailand to catch the concert as well....Anyway, Sheep ears symbolise Junsu's fan too...hahah (Balloons mv) =P
<---In Platinum mall...the wall full with hearts...Rebecca and I decided to make our own hearts too....=) Our group spitted into two to do our respective shoppings....

Our hearts..the ones scribbled in Korean is Rebecca's...have no idea what is being written too...haha!

Our "hearts" on the wall...

Posing with them...

On our way back to Singapore...we were really shag and tired...

SIDETRACK...my contacts finally arrived..=D

Because Ms Charlene Ang is so lazy to arrange and take pictures of her buyings in Thailand....there are no pictures for that...=DDDD

2009-02-09T02:40:00.000-08:00

Back from Thailand...

The weather there is extremely hot..the sun heat are so scorching, it practically burn the skin....
(I learn to appreciate Singapore's weather now!hee hee)

People in Thailand are friendly and warm.... Have not met a horrible Thai person apart from the Thai fan in the concert...Food and stuff are cheaper than Singapore and I ended buying some stuff for school use...

Side track! I accidentally cut my own eyelashes...I really hope it grows else I will look horrible with eyelashless eyes...Its not totally bare but alittle bare...Aish....I am really bad at describing...I didnt notice that the eyelash curler was spoiled thanks to the fatso who stood on my poor bag to get a better view of Super Junior in the concert....Stupid elephant did not realise that despite my repeat concerns and naggings at her to get her foot of my little bag...Aishh....even standing on my poor bag, her stupid profusely sweaty arms brush against my already dried skin with an enoumous strength...I was fucking worried of all my bao beis in my bag... Zuer managed to get her attention and kinda asked her to get away from in between us and that particular fan scolded her for doing so...Some of the scoldings were in Thai... She only ONLY REALISED that she was standing on my bag at that time and she left in embarrassment, apologising to me in a somewhat insincere tone....How pleasing it was when the irritating housefly left only when she realise that she's the one who is making foul crys....

BUT!! IT DOESNT HELP ME IN HAVING SOME OF MY EYELASH AT THE MOMENT....ahhhh...how i desperately try to grow my eyelash...=(((((

Okay...back to hotel....We had some problems with the hotel but it was solved....Rebecca said that we could stay in a cheaper and better valued hotel next time.. But overall, it was fine to me la... Service was quite good and the staff were polite... Breakfast was buffet and to me it was a wide variety...But what I felt lacking was that they could have more vegetables because they have too much meat and I think that was the reason why I had constipation in Thailand...Poor Rebecca had to wait for me outside the toliet while we were shopping cause I desperately need to get the shit out of me.. I had to use alot of strength while shitting cause it didn't wanted to come out.. Until now while typing, my butt hurts cause I just shitted in the morning and there was more pain due to the erosion that I cause yesterday...haha~~ MY shit in Thailand was really BIG....don't know how it managed to come out also...=XXX

OKAY...It isnt really the topic....*rolls eyeballs*

I bought many many T-shirts and a pair of shoes I always want to get...*Skips around*

Not the topic either...

The SM town concert was not too bad! We had a good view, the stars were gobsmacked right infront of us if they come to our side but the formation of the stage made it difficult for us sometimes to see them...Rebecca, Zuer and Zita will understand this...I don't really know how to explain...
DBSK was as usual, good looking though they looked tired and lack of sleep...Jaejoong look somehow different that day in Rebecca and my opinion....
SJ was fun looking and interactive...heechul made me amused by him...so amused I get so happy whenever I see him appear....lol...
Shinee was adorable...I like Key! =DDD
Snsd were so skinny that I am envious of their figure and height!!!
Ri lin was cute and shy! =)))
* I am getting addicted to Gee though I am netural with SNSD...

Many Singaporeans were there to watch the concert...I think that SM and Singaporean organisers should really seriously consider holding a concert in Singapore...Anyway, they can earn revenue not only through Singaporeans but foreigners too, considering SM artistes popularity in Asia....

oohhh...waiting for a taxi after the concert was terribleee!!!
But it was because of that that we saw DBSK and SJ's car leaving the venue...so it wasnt that bad...BUT i really stink and all I wanted to do at that point of time was to jump into a pool of water....

Because Valentine is approaching, the mall that we shop at...I think its spelt like this Platinum mall...Inside on one of the floors, there's a wall pasted with hearts and wordings scribbled on top of it...

Being enthusiastic, Rebecca and I pasted our own hearts behind....leaving them there while we are back in Singapore....

Aiyaya
why is facebook so slow today???tsk tsk

P/S...I regretted my outfit on fri...=X

2009-02-03T08:44:00.000-08:00

SHAG!!!! >.<

2008-12-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching the long awaited piano battle between xiah junsu(DBSK) and Taeyang(Big Bang)!
Xiah was oh my god freaking good!!!!Though his english isnt as strong as Taeyang, the emotions and feelings of the song is conveyed in an unspoken manner. In my opinion, both of them did very well but Xiah definitely did better than Taeyang. (I don't think I am bias!hahas)

I am so so so glad they chose Xiah out of DBSK to play the piano since we don't get to see him play the piano as much as micky and hero.

Here's a cut of xiah's piano battle.

Truly a shinning star, with all the talents and charisma that makes him one of the top global stars these days. Of course, his group mates are also equally talented that makes me really proud to say that they are the deserving top stars that are in the Guinness world record with the biggest following. tsk tsk...

Yunho's dance battle was great too though i wish that the others in the group would perform a particular segment of their own too, pitting against the others.

Yunho's dance battle with the other "competitors" from the respective groups.

Ahhh....
Its a DBSK Dosage week for me! =)))) I wish.... Feb will come soon and that I am able to accomplish what I want to do. =)

2008-12-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

The clock has struck 12 am a few minutes ago!!
Its still not too late to wish everyone

May all dreams and wishes come true for the coming year!! (=

(P/s...I wish Santa Claus is real!)

2008-12-24T01:46:00.000-08:00

Had been busy with school, friends and mostly work these days.

Alright!Did not work for the entire holiday, but enough to suffice my spendings this holidays!

Made new friends that I may get to work with in the future in Esplanade.

Basically, my job was to get the well wishes of the public by getting them to pen them on a wishing sphere(it looks like a white ball). It could be any wishes, any thing they want for 2009. After gathering all the wishes, these wishing spheres would be placed on the river of marina bay for the countdown. Hmm, I bet the river is going to look pretty, with all the spheres on the river, especially in the night cause I heard there's going to be lights shining on the wishing spheres.

I wanna make a trip down to look at all the wishing spheres in the night! hahas!!!

So far, I met really nice fellow colleagues: YingLi,Alan, Quinn, Shunping, Sengtat, Irene, Bryan and Brendan. (Worked with Yingrong too.hahas)

The one that worked with me the most was Ying Li. I gave her all my suayness!! (=
hahas... But she would not choose to complain about it! Rather she was happy to receive them!Lol...She was indeed my tong gan gong ku partner for that period. Lots of crapping and retard stuff!

OOOHHH, and Sengtat and I took a liking of becoming private detectives! LOL...

Even though this job was pretty tiring cause it takes a toll on your body after some time, I thought it was quite fun!XD

Kexin popped by to visit a couple of times when I was working near her and I must say I am really delighted seeing her cause it has been a long time since I met up with anyone from my secondary school clique apart. As usual, people around her gets attracted by her uniqueness and crazy charm! I always told her that!hahahs!~

Hmm...while working, some of my SIM friends walked pass and spotted me. Was pretty embarrassed and I tried to hide myself away from them. Ryan and Jerry were making fun of me because of that la! I have no idea why I was embarrassed. But I had to hide even more cause when I saw them I was pretty shocked and my left eye got a sharp pain and started tearing on its own. It looks like I was crying and Jerry even asked me if I was crying. My eyeliner was smudge and I looked like a panda after that. Speaking of the sharp pain that occurred in my eye, it wasn't the first time that I experienced that! There were quite a couple of times where my eye start to feel the pain and tear on its own. That particular eye!!

I think that my eyes are sensitive cause when I wear contacts for a period of time, my eyes start to have these sticky, yellowish plus that comes out of them frequently. (I really mean frequently cause when I clear them, it starts to appear new plus) I hope it is just the particular brand cause Tara and Weili didn't have good feelings about that brand too! I really wanna try other brands and hope that it will be fine cause the contacts can make someone look better...hahahas!! All in the sake of becoming better looking and confident.

Michelle also happened to work around one of my areas and we kinda meet up for a quick lunch! XD
Glad to know about all the happenings to her...pretty interesting eh???

Caught up with Weili after her Melbourne trip for her birthday celebration. Ate in Shokudo and caught the twillight movie together. We both like the show and we wanna catch its sequels!
hahas~
I just adore any shows that have vampires. (=
Glad that she liked the gift and the whole trip though there were some unhappiness before that.(=

School's going to start on the Jan 5. Maybe still going to Thailand on the Feb 7 for the SM concert. Hopefully, everything is manageable, though Ryan thought that it was a crazy idea.
The whole timetable for school is crazy. School's starting earlier and I will definitely find it a chore to wake up super early in the morning. I was late in the past when the timings were not that early and I am starting to dread the need to wake up earlier and TRY my darnest best not to be late. (which seems like an impossible mission =(()

Hopefully, this semester will be good cause Tara, Sharifah and I kinda struggled last semester.

*Yawns....

These days, there were just too much stuff to munch on! Especially so if you work in a shopping center where you are faced with too much temptations!! Yours truly gained about 3-4 kg and I am dying to shed them!!

The house contains some more attractions! Been eating chocolates the past few days and now there are more chocolates!!
ITS SINFULLY TEMPTING AND DELICIOUS!!!!

I must try my hardest not to stare at them!!!

OKIE!
*off to watch some show!

Ciao~~

2008-11-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

*Groans

I am supposed to be in Thailand with my group of friends shopping and probably spazzing about the sm town concert in our hotel room at this hour!

oh wells,

nothing still beats our safety!

In fact, I am kind of glad that they canceled the concert... ...
To go there is akin to sending ourselves to the lion's den I suppose....
But at least, it is better than the situation happening in Mumbai? (My personal view)

On Wednesday, met up with Andy to go to IKEA to buy a stupid stool... Met Mel later on in Bugis and the three of us did some shopping... After that, we went to Orchard cause Mel wanted to see the decorations for Christmas. Hmmm, Decorations were not bad la....Was abit tired that day...I guess its due to me lazing too much that a little more activity will cause me to feel more tired... hahaha....

Thursday-- A day filled with contacting people and all for the stupid Thailand trip. Hoho, I did not pack my luggage until airasia sent a message, informing the passengers that the flight has been canceled due to the closure of the airport.
Many felt relieved that the concert is being pushed to a later date. (I am one of them! tee hee hee~)

Friday-- Since Rebbecca and Zuer were on leave, we decided to meet up. Rebbecca flew down from KL to have a mini Cass gathering with us(Meiting and I) in Singapore. haha... (To celebrate the postponement of the concert)...hahas....
Pictures are with Zuer and I haven't receive them...=) I guess she is busy working.... =)

Met up with Meiting friends-Peirong,Angela,Ashely,Yiling,Pearly and Winnie, also fellow Singaporean Cass for dinner in Clarke Quay....all of us are so gutted over our misfortunes....hahas

If everything is fine, ALL of us will be meeting once again on FEB 7!!!hahahas~~~
I hope next semester schedule will be perfect!!I don't want those bad luck again!!!

2008-11-26T04:29:00.000-08:00

The situation in Thailand seems to be getting bad...)=

Parents are unwilling to let me go... ...

I hope the situation gets better! )=

2008-11-24T06:15:00.000-08:00

It was eventful last week and it is such a pity to see it come to an end... ... *Signs, this shows how fast time pass!

I am so looking forward to Thursday, another happening that is due to happen! (=

Friday - Attended Energy's autograph session. Nothing much happened. Just recognition and a mini gathering with the friends made in the past. Pretty fun as there were efforts of further communication. Weili was like going high on their manager- shi yi (We call him Mr Eleven) and he reciprocated, SHYLY. It was like a start of a blossoming "love story". HAHA... Some says that Xiao gang's make up was thick. As a result, he looked like a wayang. But, I felt that he just looked white, like a vampire with no hint of blood! hahas~ He will make a very good looking vampire. Hahas~

Saturday- Went for Monster Music festival. Only managed to catch Energy's performance.
We saw the Singaporean girl, Natalie, who got a small scene in Wangzi's solo mv, "Dui bu qi" while we were waiting to enter the event venue.

While watching Energy's event, everyone was like laughing at Shuwei at a point of time because while teaching a fan how to do a sexy dance, he actually split his pants! (Which is really an embarrassment.) Even we were standing at the back, can hear the pant's LOUD tear!!! Xiao gang also made a small hole in his pants but it wasn't as obvious as Shuwei la... ...(Yvonne, standing in the front told Xiuhui and I that while singing a slow song, Shuwei forgot about the hole in the pants and he just sang as per normal. As a result, while bending down slightly to show his emotions, the fans infront saw his boxers. It was red in colour. haha)

Deon, Jean, Weili and I were like high when we heard energy sing fang shou as it really brings us the memories of the past where we are newbies and that this old school song really just makes us HIGH... ...

Ate in Jumbo together with Deon, Jean, Weili and Joey. Energy and Bang bang tang were there having their urm dinner? I suppose la... Though it is kinda late for me to consider that as dinner.

The Bang bang tang members were friendly. In my impression, Ao quan seems to be the one surrounded by the most fans? Weilian has not much fans beside him and it was actually easy to strike out a conversation with him. Andy ge, their manager was also very nice. =)

Sunday- Attended Bang bang tang's autograph session in IMM. Arranged to meet Xiuhui at 1.30 pm. While waiting for the event to commerce, we went HIGH on our own. It all started out with my lameness. This shows how much shit and rubbish we can come out with while fa- mei- ing. Andy ge was amused by our lameness though! So amused that he actually gave out a loud laughter.

I guess that Yvonne, Xiuhui and I were the last few in the queue as we kinda let ourselves get stuck as we were too lazy to move. All the members were very nice! Poor Ao Quan. I got ourselves struck at a weird situation and both of us were laughing at each other awkwardly. But I swear it wasn't deliberate and the two members sitting closest to him were gawking at our awkwardness. But at least, he was fine with it.

Ah wei and Ao quan were damn horrible towards the three of us. Totally dee- siaoing and laughing on purpose when they saw us hiding from them. LOL. When Andy ge saw Yvonne, he was quite happy.

Overall, it was really fun laa... ... Though they probably want to "hit" us when they read our stuff. Thank god, they won't remember us and what we wrote does not have our names on it!!HAHA!~

Weili and I at the jumbo restaurant.

Cant wait for thursday to come though I am yet to start packing my luggage! Will be away during the weekends for a great concert! =) (shall blog about it when I am back!)

2008-11-20T22:17:00.000-08:00

I am at peace now... =)

Nothing goes as smoothly as now...

Contented with who I am, where I am now... ...

I love my life now...

Wishing that this self contentment and inner peace will continue to go on and on... =))))

2008-11-08T01:44:00.000-08:00

Its a no brainer to know that you have no brains... ...Or rather, your brains are only productive at generating evil schemes... ...

I hope you just shut the fuck up and stop all the prank calls or unnecessary calls to my family... ...

Whether you are near or right below the house waiting for her, it doesn't give you the bloody right to call anyone in the household to wake her up just cause she had forgotten/overslept... ....

Who are you that we have to listen and answer your call????

Who are you that require us to wake her up for you??

Let me tell you, you are just a fugly ugly torn in the flesh! A Significant NOBODY! As much as I wish you are a NOBODY, I have no choice but to recognize that this freaking, hideous torn is here to stay, for a while... ...

Let me tell you, my family is unrelated to you... ...One day, you will just be gone in our lives and we will just enjoy the tranquil peace without you... ...

GROW UP!

YOU ARE ALREADY 21 YEARS OLD!!!

THAT IS A FREAKING AGE THAT YOU SHOULD BY NOW HAVE AT LEAST MATURE BY A BIT!!!

I don't deny that I am still undergoing the maturing stage.
BUT at least, I know what I ought to do and what I ought not to do! I am in no position to comment on this actually; BUT I CANT HELP BUT SAY as a not very matured person, when I am able to point out how bad your immaturity gets, it just simply goes to show how bad you are!!!

You just simply cut out as a pathetic soul to me... I don't know if I am to pity you a not... ... Because you are just a NOBODY to me...

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And to you, is flaring up becoming one of your hobbies?

Think about why people in the family are doing these?

Think before you think if you have the right to flare!

We are all short tempered sometimes, but don't you think you are taking it a bit too far today???
Was it necessary????

I aint afraid of you seeing this entry...If I daresay it in front of your face, what do I have to hide?

2008-10-08T04:44:00.000-07:00

I am officially 21!! ahhhhh.... (I want to return to being 17/18!!!Those were the days.....*sign)

Made no plans to celebrate my 21st birthday- my plans were going to work on the actual day and having a dinner with Weili.

BUT BUT!!

My dear friends took matters into their hands and surprised me! It was very meaningful and I was very touched. Apparently, they didn't wanted me to celebrate a lonely birthday!

Its magical! I had happy memories of it now thanks to the magic weaved by my dear friends... ... AWWWW~~~

Oct 4 (I think)-
Ate Japanese food though Weili had Japanese food the day before and did not felt like having one that day.(Its all thanks to my cravings!hehe) We were supposed to wear our most elaborate, 'kua zhang' clothingsday BUT Weili's clothings seemed normal to me and she felt that mine is fine. Had a meal in Marina Square with Weili. At that time, I was blissfully unaware of their 'sneaky' plans.
Smile~
Ever seen a happy person next to the dustbin?
Us in the dark
my clothings for that day. Was actually wearing a rather bright blue tights that day and a leopard scarf around my neck.

Oct 6 -
While in my room, Eileen's boyfriend passed my a gift from Eileen for my birthday in advance. It is this really cute rabbit soft toy and I pretty much guessed that it was because of my rabbit year.
Kopped this from her blog and I like the wings behind the rabbit!lolx~

Around 11.50++pm, dearest Tara called me from Malaysia. She wanted to do a countdown with me for my actual birthday. At the same time, Andy called me.

Andy- "I am outside your house now."
Charlene- "Don't bluff la, you don't even know my house."

BUT true to his words, he was REALLY outside. I had to rub my eyes to ensure that it wasn't a dream. Tara, on the line was saying that Andy was really sweet. Besides Andy, Melissa came too, waiting for me downstairs at the void deck.

I could not believe it cause it was unexpected and Andy SHOULD be in Army. (He took a leave from Army just to celebrate his hao jie mei's birthday!) =)))))) And It was wayyyy behind Melissa's bed time!

Knowing that I love durians, knowing that I was craving for them at that point of time, they got durian puffs from Goodwood hotel and some cakes. I was honestly embarrassed, but for what reason, I have no idea. It was than I realised that Weili and them had been conspiring together for some time. I was so embarrassed, my thoughts were in a mess, I didn't remember to make a wish...hahas, but I did make one later on!

Actually, Andy wanted to get a durian cake from Goodwood but there wasn't any durian cakes cause it was durian season no more. He took the trouble and effort to comb places for other cakes before he settled on the puffs and all.

Charlene(obasan character): Actually, I eat almost anything. Don't have to be from Goodwood.
Expensive!
Andy: Its because you eat anything that why all the more the food on your birthday should be good!

Awww....Tell me how not to be touched by my friends???

We stayed up all night till 5+am before they head to their respective places. Called Weili cause I was too excited.

Oct 7-
Met Weili in Cityhall at around 1+. Unable to find something that she felt suitable for me as a birthday gift, she bought me sweets that she remembered I was fond of! Also, she treated me to a meal at one of the restaurants.
Initially, we wanted to eat at the cosplay restaurant but we felt that the look of it was pretty disappointing, thus, we chose not to enter the restaurant.

Felt really bad cause she is still studying and she is younger than me and the meal is kind of expensive. So, we made a pact, for whoever birthday in the future,we will not buy gifts, a meal would be sufficient.

Met Yingrong at around 6+ for work. Sweet KaiSze, my kallang buddy bought me a muffin topped with sinful chocolate though I barely knew her. Amanda got me some cookies. Got some wishes from the other colleagues too. hahas.

At around 12+am, Kexin popped by at my house, bringing me a cheese cake. Had a chit chatting session with her too and I am really glad to meet up with her since we haven't been chatting/meeting up.
Actually, Shimin wanted to organize a secondary school group meeting together to celebrate my birthday but I felt that it was fine and there's actually not much need to celebrate it since I felt that it may be stressful month for me. Looking at my calender alone and the things I have to do made me frustrated- The power of it.

Oct 8-
Went to school late, but did not attend the lessons cause the lecture hall was full. Jerry was kind enough to offer to type the tips the lecturer gave for us - Sharifah, Tara and I.

After the whole lecture, friends stayed behind to celebrate. Stupid Tara made it big. She wanted to make it even BIGGER but because I did not go for the first part of the lecture, I ruined her plans.
The cake =)
Jerry and I celebrated together cause his birthday's on the 2nd of Oct. =)
Jerry and I. The slash that Tara and Sharifah has come up with. I had to wear the red eye mask that they prepared for me too. The slash is mean - Chucky's birthday. Stupid Tara, wanna bring this nickname from Poly to Uni. =(((
An unsuccessful group picture because before, I threw some cake on Jerry and When there was a movement I was so paranoid that they would smear some cake on me and thus, I duck under the table and sough refuge from it.
A closer look at me ducking the others due to my guilty conscience.
Cutting the other half of the cake.
When things get nasty and violent....
Tara started itI returned the "favor" to her.. heheEvil plans in progress. Look who's the master mind?hohoho~
The twist twist pose!The BIG jump!Look at Tara!So funny!
Ryan and Jelly!Them acting cute... ...Tara had to climb up the bench to achieve this look. hahas. . .Short~~
The four of us acting macho~The 'gay' partners!Scandalous ~~Kicking Tara~Inspired by feliza's pose as above part 1
Part 2
The helpless "swing"
The si wen picture.
The Mad Serial Killer on loose.
That's right. Tara, you can't do that!
The ending pose outside the lecture theater. We were making wayyyy too much noise and there was a lecture going on inside. It took us some time to realize that there was a lesson. hahas. luckily, no one came out to embarrass us. =)
With the main organizers. =)))
Of course! Other than the physical wishes, I wanna thank those who wished me via sms and friendster/facebook messages when they aint around me. (I don't think they will get to see my post though cause not alot of people know my blog.)
-Andy,Amanda,Clovis, CSV,Daddy,Debbie,Elvin,Rebecca, Michelle,Shimin, HuiHan, Lionel,Verena, Jowie, Yingrong, Xiuhui,Qiaolin, Siongchie,Sharifah, Jerry, Jowie, Ryan,Kexin,Weili& Jarren.-

Thank you guys for being part of my special occasion! =DDDD

2008-09-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

In Gold Coast with Serena currently!!
The time here is 10pm and its faster than the Singapore time by 2 hrs! It should be 8pm in Singapore and I would probably be just playing with Happy or walking around my house at this time.

Will be flying back tomorrow...Its really really a SHORT Getaway..
(We were actually intending to extend our stay, but we aint sure how to go about doing is since we have to co- ordinate many services, mainly the airline, hotel and transportation services. Though Daddy taught us how to go about doing it, he also advised us not to do it as one inproper coordination will cause us to be stuck here, helpless, especially when we do not have any credit card to fall back on)

There goes our whale watching plans and our wildlife night adventure... =((
(I really wanted to do those as whales are really really scarce/non-existant in singapore. Besides that,I would really like to get up close and personal with the kangaroos, feeding them and cuddling/watching some animals that are not so easily seen in Singapore?)

On the other note, I managed to cuddle a kola bear.. I so heart it! It is just so tame, so quiet and so harmless and helpless like a baby, clinging on to me. My maternal instincts sprang out!! hahas...Oh, and baby kola poo-ed on me, I think. When I released the kola, i swear I seen some round small poo rolling on the floor... BUT it is not a big deal since I kinda enjoyed cuddling it. hahas

Other than baby kola, I got up close and personal with a baby lamb, feeding it and carrying it. It is docile and it was damn nice to hug. (I felt like I was hugging my own bolster/pillow! hahas)

I always love horses and omg...I can't stop gusting over the farm!! I just LOVE LOVE LOVE the paradise farm!! I love the interactions with animals and the shows that they put out for the tourist. It is very entertaining and enjoyable.
Was totally immersed and captivated with the people, animals, weather and surroundings. =)))
(Oh, and Serena was so IN love with the goodlooking and witty host?entertainer? in Paradise farm)

Went to the discount outlets but only bought a top. Have no idea why but I just did not have the drive to shop for clothes, especially hanging out with a partner who did not seem interested to get any clothes from the shops.

Actually, there is nothing much, it seems, to shop in Gold Coast, even in the shops near our hotel.We have a hard time finding for gifts and eventually, we settled for chocolates. Yes, no surprises over it. It is probably the most normal gift people usually buy from there (I guess) ?
The beach was awesome though it is really chilly there (I was freezing like mad), the sand was fine and plentiful. I swear it was so fine like powder. Maybe I should tapao some and give as gifts to my friends and lie to them that those are face powder!!hahas!!!

Movie world was a little disappointing to me. I was expecting more games, more activities and all. The games were wayyyy too little, especially for people like us who have limited rides as we are extremely fearful of heights and do not have the guts to try the dangerous rides.
Liked the Shrek movie that was screening there though. It was urm, 3D?4D? And there was plenty of effects - Sounds, touch and visual. When the donkey sneezed, sprinkles of water flew towards our face. When the spiders were dropped, our feet felt terrible as it really gave the feeling of spiders being on the ground near us..... ........

Went to Infinity, where we were placed in different rooms of different themes I would say. Some rooms are really dark with horror sounds? Some room are colourful with many beams of lights. There's a room full of maze, a room full of balls, a room that squeezes you when you walk through and etc. It was exciting and was fun though Serena was constantly clinging on to me due to her fear in dark.
I wanted to go to the haunted house but Serena was insistant on not going cause after Infinity, which was a little dark, she was certain that the haunted house would be a nightmare for her. =((

The food here are indeed expensive, as compared to Singapore. Makes me appreciate Singapore's food prices even more since expenses are forked out entirely by ourselves.

We will be going to the Sea world tomorrow. Hope that it would be great!!!

Actually, it feels like there are so many things that I would like to do in Gold Coast. Feel like going to Australian Outback Spectacular now that I am looking at the website. I guess that these plans will have to be shelved till next time.

P/s. The Angmohs staying near us are so noisy... They seem to stay in the hotel the whole day, just merely drinking and making loud noises. When we bumped into one of them while waiting for the lift, he apologised for the noise and he even asked if girls like guys? It is just so weird!! Luckily, the lift arrived before we made any response to it.I bet he is drunk silly. hahas...

2008-09-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

Jie's and my japan trip may just vanished like that! =(
Jie is trying her best currently to salvage this situation as it is causing us a headache... especially for her... If there is anything to describe this, I think we are like ants struggling to keep ourselves afloat on the water... ..

I remembered the time when she had to make a decision to folk out the money....
I remembered the time when we have to make sure that our schedule does not clash...
I remembered the times where we had to make trips down to people's park to find a suitable itinerary or a reasonable price..
I remembered the excitement we had when we thought of the amount of money we will bring there and the cute little stuff that we will be buying there...

We were both harboring high hopes and anticipation for the trip. Serena even counted down the days.... Her spirits were high and it could be felt....

BUT BUT BUT ...
The fucking tour agency that we had chosen had to cancel everything..citing that it wasn't their bloody fucking fault!

I understand that a tour group is impossible on the day that we had chosen to fly off from Singapore as three people backed out of the tour group...FINE, that is purrr-fectly reasonable... I totally understand this point...BUT, this announcement came one and a half weeks before we were set to fly... How are we supposed to find another package in such a short notice??

To be fair, they did, tried to offer us a solution, which was to fly on the 30th... But because of work and school commitments, this alternative is not something that we could relent on....If it is possible, we would have already agreed and make things not so complicated, isn't it?

What irks us was they told us this when the date is nearing....And they kept assuring us that they would be able to find a solution for us... The promises of getting back to us are empty promises...Instead of getting back to us as promised, we have to constantly call them on their "deadline" to ask them what's going on.What kind of promises is that? I don't think that is how business should be dealt huh?
Like their promises, their solutions were offered at a snail like pace and it stalled time as we were really helpless to the situation and there was nothing we could do but to place our utmost trust in them. They got us seething when they seem so insincere in helping us.

When we called them, they keep asking for additional time to work out on a plan for us. We gave them time, but time and time again, they failed to come up a suitable plan for us. We are really tired and sick of it and at last, they allowed a refund. BUT this refund could only come a few weeks later. There's no trip to Japan anymore!I am wondering if it will be like their empty promises or will it be delivered to us at a snail- like pace again... .. It isn't a small amount for newly and yet to graduate graduates like us...
I hope, doing a business, they will honor their word...
Our anticipation is now replaced with disappointment and all we can do is nothing...

Another thing was that when the different people called us from the travel agency, they quoted us different pricings.. PLEASE, even if you were to swindle innocent young folks, please coordinate well within yourselves before any fault of yours can be seen... Hide that fault!!

Here's how it goes, I could only remember this vaguely from Serena's account.....
Jason :" The total would be $1652. You would have to pay an additional $200."
Shirley: "The total we have calculated that you have to pay is $1100. "

WAHHH!!! Where did the other $552 went to???? It is not a small amount!!!
No explanations were given... ... Just the tone of of indignance...
Travel Star really let us down with their inefficiency... We will not go back there again or if we have to, under life and death situations, we will pay extra precautions.

Okay, Serena just called me...Instead of going to Japan this trip..We will be going to Gold Coast!!
The itinerary seems fun!! So....hopefully, it will cover our disappointment...

The picture below...tara's a bimbo and She's loving it...hahas

2008-09-03T09:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TARA TAN MEI LING!

In consideration that she would be in malaysia celebrating her actual birthday, Sharifah and I decided to give her a surprise in school today. BUT, the birthday girl ruined our plans by being late, resulting in us moving on to plan B which was arranged only in the morning.
(It was slightly modified, as in the amount of embarrassment that she will have to suffer)

Tara wore a nice combi today and honestly, I felt bad when I first saw her cause our plan was to ruin her clothings today with loads of water. I could only try to hold on and stop myself from giving that guilty laugher and look. Thankfully, Tara didn't suspect that much! (She was still saying that she had to thank god cause her day was smooth and it seems like there won't be any mischief on our part)

Poor Sharifah...She volunteered to skip school so that our plan could run smoothly. We didn't take down alot of notes also. ha has. Lecture was SO SO SO boringgg.

Our initial plan was to shock Tara first by asking Jerry to 'confess' to her, at the same time it will help us to delay her from following us out of the lecture hall. After that, Sharifah and I will ambush outside the doors with the limited time to wait for her arrival and use water sprays to spray at her. Without much choice, she would have to wear a T-shirt specially prepared by us. (limited edition okay? Sharifah specially designed the plain black tee with paint; with the writings, "Tara is a bimbo, I am loving it") Lastly, there will be a cutting cake session.

BUT BUT, TARA have to be late!! roar** So we got to shift the timings to after school!

I lured Tara to the toilet Sharifah was waiting at; and I ran ahead of her on a pretense that I was really urgent so that I could quickly get the water spray from Sharifah. Tara's face was classic, she still looked blur when she step into the "lion's den".. ...
The toilet floor seemed a little messy due to our mischiefs but I aint sure if it was already messy before our arrival.

Tara:" don't spray already. People wear nice nice today you know!"

But you think we will listen meh???We continued spraying water on her.

At least Tara was game enough to change into the lovely shirt we prepared for her. I was expecting the shirt to look more kiddy, with more drawings in mind to humiliate her, but I think Sharifah was kind to her cause the shirt looks not bad and it was quite nice.

We paraded her in front of some people we know;and she was desperately covering her shirt with the plastic bag, used to contain the shirt.
(It was supposed to be more embarrassing laaa...with her sitting in class wearing that shirt for the whole time...ahh...just imagine that!)

Tara, you should just wear this all the time. It look damn stylish on you!hahas..It is so meant for you... ...You can check the pictures if you don't believe me!!
Stupid Tara smeared some cake on my face while posing for photo. The photo is ugly, please.

Of course, knowing my pattern, I won't let her smear for nothing. I took revenge, taking more cake and smashing it on her hair and face. But it was little, considering the fact that there were still enough cake to eat... ... The whole place was full of our traces... hee hee... BUT we did clear it up, okay?

Drew some stuff on Jerry's face and he said that I am evil cause I wouldn't allow him to take more than one tissue to clean his face!=PPP Bleahx!~

But overall, I think that the surprise was not too bad.University life should not be so boring, it should be more fun cause its going to be the last phrase before entering into the boring workforce.
Most importantly, Tara enjoyed it and our efforts did not go to waste. Muahahhas.. ...

I just love events, maybe I should really think of doing more of a events related job in the future! =DDD

2008-09-02T05:32:00.000-07:00

LOOK at this medication from the vet for happy!
Its pretty funny, well, at least to me laa....

The patient's name alone made my day!XD
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Okay! Was quite busy the past few days/weeks with projects, tests, outings, work and drama series and I am so glad those are over.
Hopefully, I am able to pass my tests!
There are more projects to go and I got to start on them a.s.a.p else I will not be able to cope with it since I have many many things in mind! hahas

Cant wait for my Japan (Sponsered by da jie, Serena) and Thailand trip!= ))

Cant wait for surprise~=)))

2008-08-04T01:18:00.000-07:00

Happy's diet for the day!A healthy lifestyle keeps a vet away....

Morning- Breakfast, fruit/vegetable juice (Cause he doesn't like plain water)

Afternoon - Sometimes food that we, humans eat except that it is grinded into small pieces (They are by the way brown rice/organic vegetable/bit and pieces of chicken) Sometimes, his normal dog food.

Snacks - His normal dog food that we give him to eat while making him do some tricks/be obedient OR whatever he can find while "vacuuming" our floor OR plants in the balcony.

Dinner- Sometimes food that we, humans eat except that it is grinded into small pieces (They are by the way brown rice/organic vegetable/bit and pieces of chicken) Sometimes, his normal dog food.

Deserts - Cut fruits (These days, Happy eats mango fruits/dragon fruits)

I swear I've never seen such a healthy dog before, except for happy.

He is supposed to be healthy and fit since he runs around so much, but he is still fat! hahahs..He makes our family and friends feel puzzled over that fact!
Fat dogs are cute but I do fear for their health... hahas.. What if cute and fat happy have heart disease in the future with all the fats around his heart, squeezing it??? AHH...Choyyy....touch wood ar....

In the afternoon ~~when I was supposed to be hard at work, doing projects~~, I was happily researching on ~~human~~ horoscopes when I found this :

THE PET CATS AND DOGS HOROSCOPE!
O'rite, I am a suaku okay? But it is just too cute for me !! ^^

Super interesting laa....So immediately, I went to research on Happy's horoscope.
Happy's born around April 12-19, according to his owner which makes him an Aries! =))

This is what I found:

ARIES: March 21 – April 19

Aries dogs are real characters: plucky, independent, and spirited. They need a leader to tell them what's what.
(it doesn't seem to me that Happy possess such character though he is spirited!)

Happy belongs to this category: Macho and Maestro
http://www.littlepawz.com/horoscope.html
http://www.pethoroscopesgo.com/aries-dogs.shtml

Some are quite true some aren't. If human horoscope can be inaccurate at times, what more about dogs? But nevertheless, it is interesting, and I have fun matching Happy's personality against the horoscope.

I SPOT ~~FATTY~~ HAPPY!!

--->Grumpy Happy...(Happy: fatty?Are you talking about me?)

*Char nods her head and hurry makes a exit from this blog to rush her damn projects.. ...

2008-07-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

It seems like there will be plenty of drama shows to watch every monday now that hot shot,staring Jerry Yan, Wuchun and Show and the legend of the chivalrous heros, starring lollipop and hei she hui mei mei have just started their virgin air on TV in Taiwan. Plus, not forgetting my all time favourite, fated to love you.hee hee.

Now, its something to look forward every monday, for me laaa. hahas.

Spent the whole time yesterday just purely lazing. I think that I have really wasted the whole day and allowed the whole day to pass me by so fast. I was supposed to start on my project!! AHHH...I hope that the project would be quite effortless.(in my dreams)

Was in Chinatown today to meet Nana to take a look at the Japan tour packages. One of the tour package caught our attention and now we are just waiting for everything to be finalized and confirmed. =)
Hopefully, the Japan plan will take place. =)
Chinatown was super packed today and we left after having a satisfying cup of bubble tea and two durian pancakes.

Oh...and ASA had some marketing gimmick that was pretty interesting.^^
They had some mascots walking around and a band playing a tune to draw interest and attention from the crowd.
The five mascots were cute in a not very nice manner and urm, they were kind of playful.This blue one is the cutest especially!hahas!~
-->me with the blue mascot,i look damn lok kok, my pockets were stuffed with lots of stuff.
It was standing there alone and posing all the time. Not to mention, he is the shortest among all the mascots.
Kudos to them for withstanding the heat with such a heavy and hot costume, I don't think I will ever do such a job. hahahas^^

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I think I will do my project seriously tomorrow.
Tomorrow, no play play... ...and hopefully, I can spare some time this week to sing karaoke. Its been quite long since the last time I went k. (I am itching for a session on that. )hee hee ^^

money money money!

2008-07-25T21:02:00.000-07:00

Friday - July 25,2008 is seriously a bad day for me. It's not even Friday the 13th!
(I don't think I will ever forget this day!)

The horrific day started off with me wearing my printed shirt the wrong way and I did not realize it when I attended school that very day.
My mood was kind of foul and restless due to the sleepless nights before; and having to attend the early morning, boring session that day doesn't make things right.
My printed T-shirt, which I was proud off initially, (cause I thought that it resembles a particular person's style I like)was unfortunately high up and was seriously uncomfortable. At that point of time, I totally regretted my choice of cloth!
I should have, should have chosen something else!

The best part was - I did not even realize my silly and blur mistake only after break time. I wonder if the rest of my classmates spotted the mistake. During break, Amalie, Jerry and Ryan didn't point out anything so I am praying that no one noticed it. (my self consciousness is acting up on me)
Tara thinks that it looks weird before I changed it and silly her thought that I wore it inside out instead, only to find out that the prints were the same, front and back.

I think that I was a joke to her that day. =_=""

Well, since the day started off with a bad start in my mentality, I was praying that the rest of day will make up for it.
BUT IT DIDN'T!! Guess I don't have the luck huh? Or maybe I was really in a bad mood that makes things look really bad. Its a psychology thing??

All the slightest things like almost falling off the escalator and the incident whereby my prawn flew away while I was peeling only adds to my misery!!! =(((
My prawns! I love prawns though I am mindful that over binging on them is bad for my cholesterol level. (I will try to eat less of them!)

After school, went to Shaw Tower to find daddy since we will be heading down to an UBS educational seminar together. It was all about foreign exchange, all about investments and blah that was totally foreign to me. Daddy wanted my attendance as he wanted to expose to more of such events that would be helpful for me in businesses in the future. Also, he wanted me to learn the etiquette while mixing with the rest of the business people there.

Suntec is near Cityhall mrt and Suntec is near Shaw Tower.

But alas, once I reached Cityhall mrt, I got a brain block. I suddenly felt lost! I couldn't recall where Suntec was, not to mention where Shaw Tower is! AHHHH...
At that point of time, I was thinking what's wrong with me since I know where these places are and it is not my first time there. It is SO not my usual behavior.
Called Weili to confirm that Suntec was in Cityhall and even asked her how to go to Shaw Towers! Weili sounded quite flabbergasted that I could not remember such places. ha has~

Anyway, was late while meeting daddy cause of a couple of reasons like having to make a detour back to the city link cause there wasn't a escalator leading up to Suntec anymore.(shows how long I didn't got to Suntec)

While I was in the carpark finding for daddy's car, I saw daddy the other side when he called me on my hp. Walked to find him the other side as there was quite a long way to make it to the other side. To my surprise, he wasn't there anymore but his car was there.

I know it sounds ridiculous but I felt that, at that point of time, I was in a different dimension.
Somehow, I was frantic, calling for daddy on his hp to ask where he was. Apparently, when he saw me at the other side, he thought that I have left that level for the next level. Thus, he took the stairs to find me on the other level.
It was miscommunication and I think I was overly paranoid,cranky and overly anxious that day. It was just so weird. Probably I wasn't fully awoken.

The UBS event was grand and the food was not too bad. (daddy said the food was cooked by their own chefs and the chefs were really good.)
I guess the food theme that day was thai?

The talk was long and it only hype up after a 5 mins break whereby the people around were involved in a mini-game that need applications to what they were 'taught' in the beginning about assessing the market and their graphs.

I still know nuts though.
I had to prevent myself from dozing off during the talk and I guess I went to the talk unprepared which was the reason why I catch no balls of what they were discussing. (I am not good in all that kind of graphs and all.)
Still don't know know how to open up and mix around though.

On the side note, YULIN's HAMSTERS JUST GIVEN BIRTH TO THREE KIDS! Hooray!!Everyone is excited in the family it seems, cause we hafn't experience such stuff before and it had taken Happy's glory away for the moment... ...

To think that we thought that the hamsters will not breed since it has been quite a long time and the two of them didn't seem to like one another.

Sadly, daddy hamster is separated from mummy hamster and their kids.
I am so afraid of taking a look at the babies cause I heard that when a person looks at the mummy hamster and her babies, she will eat up the babies.
heh heh, even instructed Happy not to look at them since his cage was next to their cage. His gigantic eyes will scare the hamsters! hehe
Whether Happy will look at them remains a mystery.
Hopefully, the young hamsters won't bite and will survive from their chor lor first-time mother.

Serena is so worried that the mother hamster will not be able to take care of the kids well. haha
She sounds like an old aunty laa!!Especially when she was so into telling me about how chor lor the mother is and how the mother had never given birth before.
lalalala...I know you are reading my blog,but too bad... ....aunty! hehe

The new parents in the past
-->Daddy hamster-->Mommy hamster-->picture with the mummy in the past

I wonder how the babies will resemble, eagerly anticipating for their growth. Will they inherit the crazy gene that the father has - placing itself on its two back legs and falling down repeatedly like a mad hamster.

hmm, time will tell. XD

2008-07-24T04:56:00.000-07:00

I am back from the dentist!!

My decayed tooth is treated with its fillings! i was told by the assistant that the filings used were white in colour but it wasn't convincing as mummy says that it is black.

"It is the lighting!" <---quoted by the dental assistant.
~~To punish~~ My mischievous tongue as i was told, was kept under control so that it will not get into the way when the dentist placed a rubber dam onto my mouth!!
The movement cause me to be damn restricted laa!
But who ask my tongue not to be relaxed! =(

I swear I was relaxed and I was so not intimidated by the dentist at all!... ... (so, what's up with my tongue?? *puzzled)

A rubber ~~damn~~ dam looks like this!

Okay,
this isn't the rubber dam. Ha has.~

For no reason, the rubber dam, a freaking ugly thing reminds me of the muzzle that dogs use to cover their mouths or something like that.
(Looking at that picture now, I can't imagine how I got that link since the dog's muzzle is different! Maybe its because it is to punish naughty dogs and it causes movements to be restricted?)

Hmm,anyway,this is the actual rubber dam.

See, it opens your mouth all the time, causing a lot of discomfort!

It is made of rubber I think, since it smelt like one. Before it was stretched across my mouth, it looked like a balloon.
I wonder if it is a balloon's rubber. =X

Please don't imagine me with that rubber dam okay?? It is urm horrible!X.X
~~I feel like a dog at that moment. =((~~

Thankfully, the staff did their best to ease my discomfort.

I am so going to take better care of my teeth from now on.
I can't imagine myself without those pearlies which I am quite proud of though they aren't perfect.

It is better to be kiasu in that sense. Ha has.~

P/s, saw this in soompi super junior's thread. As SJ is a popular group, they have a couple of merchandise with their face printed on it. What I find amusing is Donghae's face printed on a roll on.

Just imagine using it, i think it would feel kind of weird and strange. ha has.

The prettified roll on.

2008-07-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

My laptop is finally repaired!XD

It took me ages to repair it~

Ooh, and Energy was in town last weekend,together with Milk, Yoga,Jade Liu,jj lin and Rynn Lim for some 933 event.
Weili and I did not catch the performance at all since there were too many people and it would be very suffocating to squeeze into the crowd. However, during the event, we were standing on the sides watching the stars make their way to the stage.
-->us at the sides during the event, taking pictures of ourselves before and during the event..typical camwhores...hur hur =)

We were surprised on how good looking Jade Liu will make if she was a guy. She is really handsome, probably even more handsome than some guys. Weili, was very very impressed with her it seems,and she was rooting for Jade Liu more than the rest of the performers. In fact, we stayed on longer just to catch more glimpses at her. (More of Weili laaa. hehe)

After Jade's performance(she was the 3rd performer for that event), we left to eat since we were really hungry! The food, though not very fantastic,was delicious to us and that goes to show how hungry we are! XD
--> After the event and dinner, our 'neo print' shot, one that we favour a lot ever since we took a picture like this in KL. =)

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There's a Taiwan food fair in Bugis currently, and being a sucker for food and food fairs, I got Tara to accompany me there to urm, get some lunch. (Anyway, she was intending to go to Bugis after school)
I was there for smelly tofu to the disgust of my classmates when I announced to them that I love smelly tofu, the smellier the better it is! XD
I don't find smelly tofu smelly, it is actually okay to me.Am I weird or what? =D

In Tara's account, she finds it amusing when she sees me all sad when I cant find my smelly tofu and becoming all radiant at once when I found it! ha has~ Also, while I was eating, the reactions of the people walking past were quite funny.

Had a fried durian there too! In my opinion, I feel that it taste better than the ones at old airport road (I found the add and got Debbie to accompany me there to try the fried durian when it was broad casted on TV).
The old airport road one is closed down now according to the aunty and uncle frying the durians.

Tara tried it too, due to my constant praise and urgings to it. Because of that, the aunty and uncle in the store gave me more free stuff to eat. XD
Initially, she was pretty put off by the amount of oil that was used for the durians, to which I replied back happily that it was just once and that it wasn't always that we get to eat fried durians.

She didn't found it fantastic as what I have claimed cause she found it watery. Oh wells... ...

Maybe my expectations have been lowered after the visit to the old airport road? i have no idea... ...heh heh

Ate quite a bit with Tara before making a quick trip to Bugis Street.
To our dismay, the aunty at the shop (one that specializes in making hair extensions, fake eyelashes and eyelash perming), refuses to help Tara to make her eyelashes F-O-C after some of her eyelashes dropped during the weekends.

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School's have been fine up till now.
Hopefully, the peace will still continue when we enter further into the semester. Already, there are some minor inner conflicts which is of no issue at the moment.

Project deadlines are drawing near and goodness gracious, I haven't really done anything, wasting much of my earlier time since I had been so slack.

I need that Groove to keep me doing them! My timetable seems quite hectic for this semester. =/
But if urm others can manage a busy timetable, I hope I can do it too.
SELF MANAGEMENT!

Okay, enough of my rants, I got to get my butt out of my house now for a dental appointment before I am late for it.

2008-07-18T03:57:00.000-07:00

Kexin's birthday party held in Hard Rock Cafe came earlier than her actual birthday and because of that,Camel is unable to be part of the surprise since she had a date earlier on.
Nevertheless, I am glad to see that the birthday girl is enjoying the whole surprise;credits should go mostly to her friend, Sher. =)))
-->Kexin looking good and radiant in the picture. (taken using the birthday girl's camera)

But that pretty and serene pose didn't last long.....

"ROAR"
Kexin dodging the foam sprays bought by Immelia but to no avail. After that, she took a spray near her and started spray war with the rest that came.

"I am suppose to look pretty laaa. Humpffff=(("
-->The secondary school clique, excluding Ivy and Camel. Their presence are so so so missed laa....oohhh and Kexin looks kind of unglam in that picture. XD
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Was in school today without both Tara and Sharifah!!!!
Was in a dilemma, to make a decision whether or not to attend class. It was pretty awkward as the people that I am really used to aren't around. This shows how inflexible and dependent I am...hur hur =((

But thankfully, there are people like Keren, Elvin, Sandar, Weili and Jerry to accompany me throughout my whole time in school.
Hahas... ...
If not, I think I can really be bored to tears and may just decide not to attend class at all.. ..
I like the OT teacher, his style of teaching, his patience and all. However,achieving excellent results is another.
hahas...=X

ohhhh, MY HANDPHONE IS DEAD, I am so so so in need for a new one. *foresees money flying again...AHHHHH =(((

Why does it seems to me that the phones these days are not so durable? Or is it what Andy has suggested that I am pretty rough on my phone which I, by the way, do not recall of such behavior.

I am so so so not rough....I am very gentle... =))))))
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2008-07-14T08:25:00.000-07:00

July 10 - Mummy’s birthday!! (Many birthday stars this month!)

Bought her a lovely chocolate cake (catered to my likings, haha..I have her genes, so I suppose that she will like the cake; which, by the way, my whole family kind of like it) from sweet secrets.

Fell in love with the cake ever since Shimin bought it for Camel’s birthday last year.The cake I like =) It was a little soft due to the long time spent outside after buying the cake.

Got the cake with Wanchee and Tara and due to my constant urgings, they sampled the cake that I was about to buy.

In my words, it is heavenly; after a scoop, I feel like I am floating.

In Tara and Wanchee’s words, the cake was nice but not to the extent of heavenly. Geez~

A total clash of opinions especially when I tend to exaggerate my thoughts and feelings. Heh~

Since there were three of us, we decided to buy a different cake each from Sweet Secrets to taste the different taste. Poor Wanchee got the worst cake out of the lot; thanks to me psyching her to get the particular cake (I think it was the cookie cheese one). The cookie on top was quite hard and the cheese taste funny.

As I laughed non stop at her misery while she ate the cake, she shot daggers at me with her eyes. Wooh~~ Really terrifying! 0.0

Poor poor girl. Just like don’t judge a book by its cover; don’t judge a cake by how nice its name sounds. Hee~

Before I left house today, the birthday girl was as usual, tormented by Happy, cleaning his shit on her special day. I wonder if I should laugh at it.

Happy, that rascal decided to give mummy a torture by constantly doing something that she detest, such as leaving bite marks on her feet and barking at her as if retorting back at her scoldings like a defiant kid.

“You see I old already than decide to bully me is it? Have you purposely decided to pick me, this old lady as your target?” Mummy’s actual words when she scolded Happy. I swear I did not change the words that she used.

It is always a hilarious sight seeing the grandmother and grandson interact, I likeee! XD

As expected, mummy said that there is no need to celebrate her birthday ;and as she was busy taking out the candle wax from the cake, daddy say that we cant take her picture with her face on it lest incurring the wrath of her friends.

A 'no face' photo

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OOooh, as fans of Meji milk, Tara and I were disappointed when we realize that the Meji vending machine ‘moved house’. Thanks to Weili, we got some hints as to where the Meiji milk was. WE SEARCHED THE MEJI MILK MACHINE FOR TWO DAYS OK and we finally found it!! XD

We were extremely excited and Tara (more exaggerated than me, no kidding since she always have the quiet and calm image) jumped/skipped/shouted in joy with me and to our HORROR, we found one of our lecture mates standing there refilling his water bottle. It was freaking embarrassing and immediately we froze, OUR image is GONE, !! Boo~

Stupid Jerry and Ryan keep laughing at my youthful looks and that is all because the two of them have a very old look. OLD men…Seriously, WE, YOUNG people cannot understand the OLD men’s jokes! But it is still quite interesting interacting with them laa…And Stupid Jerry keep threatening to send some un-glam picture of me to the rest of his clique. He misplaced my trust. =(((

Trust is so fragile….haiz

Met up with Shimin and CJ at town on Friday after school and before that since I was super early, I was glad to have Weili and Jocelyn’s company.

Oh, and there is one really hard core, pushy aunty selling chocolates at the basement of Wistma. The chocolates are really pricey selling at 1.25 bucks per chocolate though it was pretty nice. Her attitude was pleasantly sucky as she was pleasant while behaving like a fucker.

Thank god that she did not manage to ruin my mood for no amount of chocolate can make up for my mood. =)

Had dinner with the girls in Swenson’s and I just love my usual. =)

Celebrated Camel’s birthday with Shimin on Sunday at Tpy. I really hope that Camel enjoys going out with the two of us. It’s a pity that we can’t gather everyone. Everyone’s just too busy with their stuff since it is the busy period? It’s a pity cause this is after all, her 21^st. = (((

Glad that she like the presents that I picked for her. Spent a long time in the shop just merely choosing and there was a tight budget. Sweet her felt that it’s the thoughts that count. =))

her presents with cute and practical in mind.~~I know I am a bad shopper for presents~~ =)

This is a calender mad from lego, something that you can DIY and urm since camel is from design, i figured that it will challenge her creativity?I don't know?heex..it is practical mah...??

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Chanced upon this website and they have the lamest kinds of laws that various countries have! It is really damn lame! HAHAAS

For example,

in Alabama, it is illegal for a driver to be blindfolded while operating a vehicle. (they wont blindfold themselves right?)

In Florida, having sexual relations with a porcupine is illegal. (It hurts can?) Also, you may not fart in public place after 6PM on Thursdays. You cannot kiss your wife’s breasts.(I wonder is this law even true?)

The most absurd that I have seen so far is a women can be fined (only after death), for being electrocuted in a bath-tub because of using self-beautification utensils. (*blinks* You get fined for killing yourself on accident?)

WEIRD EH? And these are only a few that I have read so far!! Whether these laws exist anot, I aint sure but it is really quite ………WAHAHAHAS!

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It seems like almost everyone have started on their projects and I have not even started on mine (including Tara and Sharifah). Well, we better start else we will lag behind and find that we have not much time to complete it.
Will be meeting up with Yingrong and Tara (as usual after school) on Wednesday for an interview. Hope that the interview goes smoothly since money is going to be an issue to me. Hahas. Maybe we can pop by to visit Amanda at her workplace. Its been ages since we met up with one another. =)))

I am so going off to sleep now. It will be a long and tiring day for me tomorrow, I think. I can feel it, I can foresee it.
*shakes head, it doesn't seem like a good start but maybe it will change once i eat and gain my energy. hahas~ =))

2008-07-08T23:35:00.000-07:00

Ever since I've started school, I've been hanging out with Tara a lot. hahas, cause we are all bored people after our lessons.

To our relief, WIL lessons are finally over! Hoorayy!!!
The teachers hailed from Australia will no longer be coaching us anymore. Not that we don't like them, their humor though dry,could be pretty interesting/funny in a blue moon. (It may be my fault since I don't own a sense of typical humor) It was more of their stern ways that put us on our toes and fear their methods.
For example, on the first day of school, we were warned not to be late unless we love the stage cause we will be made to stand in front of the whole class and sing if we were late. Being the kiasu and paranoid students, Tara, Sharifah and I made it a point to attend school one hour earlier so that we could have many many time grace.
We are THAT KIASU since we are always the late ones! *faints.

Speaking of THAT punishment, it was never carried out. Probably the teachers meant it as a joke, huh? But yes, they are pretty strict on certain stuff. =/ They would never hesitate to point you out in the whole big-sized theater and being the shy student, I wouldn't risk being pointed out. hahas...

~~Oh, and I always think that one of the teachers look like the Mr. KFC.~~p/s Tara and Sharifah agrees that with me. hahaas. =X

Projects for WIL is released and I will try my best to remember to start doing it despite my laziness.

Yesterday was Camelia's birthday and yours truly forgotten to wish her happy birthday!!! I intended to be the last to wish her and as I was waiting for the time to pass, I fell asleep!
Its a failure and talk about me wanting to remember my dearest cliques birthdays is really redundant. AHHHHHHHHH...I really didn't mean it.

Tomorrow's mummy's birthday and Wanchee will be accompanying me to buy mummy's cake. Though mummy had repeatedly told us that she doesn't celebrate birthdays, I feel that once the cake appears infront of her, she will still be touched even by a tiny weeny bit? Afterall, I think it is a sweet thing and mummy is not made of stone. =)))--> Hardworking mummy who always help us in our daily lives, for example, helping to clean Happy's shit when Yulin is not around. We really appreciate that even though mummy will get mad at me for putting such a picture up. he he.

Its been so long since I met up with Wanchee and I am glad that we are still in touch cause I really value her as a friend; being best friends, in my opinion,in primary school.

Will be meeting up with Cheow Joo and Shimin on friday for dinner, aint sure who else are going. Its been a longggg time since I met up with Cheow Joo over a proper dinner.=)
most likely head to a beach for some games and all. Since I haven't been involve in such vigorous activities,( In my imagination,<---am totally clueless about the activities that we are doing) I wonder if my old bones are able to take considering its size butit. Perhaps it may crack!!!! hahas.

OOHHH... and there is a food fair in Orchard. Tara and I loves the durian mochi! It is really expensive,Sunday, will be meeting up with the girls and we will it is heavenly!!!!

-->Our durian mochi, I ate the one on the left and Tara's one is on the right. Obviously, Tara has a bigger mouth compared to mine. ~~Its quite big.~~ Hahas
---> Korean food, Tara claims that her mother makes better Korean food. One fine day, I would love it if I can pop over at her house to sample some of her mother's delicious cooking. =)
--> Tara with her food, acting like the food is fantastic even though her heart tells her otherwise. =_="
---> Tara And I with our hair curled. Tara has curly pretty hair now, really prettier now and I looked like a poodle, thanks to the hairdresser. This is already at an angle that doesn't show that the hair looks like a poodle's fur but trust me, the curls are not what I desired. Thank god, it is only temporary. =D
-->Sharifah and I at Clark Quay, acting like we are sailors.hahas. we heart the scenery there. =D
-->Sharifah, happily posing for this. he he....

oohhh....Happy went for a trim recently and up till now, our family is still not very used to his new hairdo.

PAST
--> A really dark picture but I love that picture cause happy looks adorable in it. He was on the staircase and since he is afraid of the staircase, he stuck his head out so that I could rescue him. =)
PRESENT
-->Happy now. Mummy say that he looks more boyish now. hahas.. and yes, he grew fatter =D
-->One of my favorite pictures cause happy looks mad with his out of bed look and he looks so so so sleepy.^.^

Happy is afraid of the leash and it was adorable watching him resisting the leash. With the leash on, Happy automatically becomes a statue, fearing to make a move. Even when we tempt him with food, using his greediness as a weakness, he did not move. Instead, he opt to sit down and stare at the food pitifully. It is really adorable and all I want to do when I see it was to hug him cause he looks like a helpless baby. Even when we move he will stay still which is so so so cute. AWWW...But it will be better if he stops bitting us. =))

Okay! Off to read my mangas! Really havent been reading since school starts. Hahas~

2008-07-01T01:35:00.000-07:00

Last day of freedom! =(((

Was out with the girls on Saturday for Debbie's 21st birthday.
Not everyone was there (i was really hoping that everyone was there) cause CJ and Ivy decided not to go due to some last minute stuff. Really hope that everyone will be present in the next gathering. Its really a pity... ...=(

The dress code was: Dress
(everyone really look urm, more feminine than usual =))

Went to Sushi tei for dinner and I got to eat my favorite salmon! =)

Most of us have our unglam moments eating the sushi captured on Kexin's camera and I think that the worst shot belongs to Kexin! HAHAHA...

Kexin--- The way she eats make her look like a goldfish (Venessa)
Well, its true, judging from the picture.=P

Instead of having a cake as usual, we bought pretty cupcakes can lit a candle up for Debbie.
The cupcakes were damn chio and it is as sweet as it looks, according to Debbie.

Aint they pretty??? =)

Debbie made wishes and come to think of it, I did not her her wishes at all. Now, what am I doing?Or maybe she didn't make a wish? XP

Debbie and her never ending birthday.

After dinner, we went to sing K in Kbox. Sadly, there isn't any pictures since the camerawoman, Kexin left for home and the rest who stayed behind just didn't see the need/ did not feel like taking/forgotten to take pictures.

The singing session was over before we knew it and it was fairly good. =)
~~I still prefer Topone after my experience with Topone.~~

Well, next up on the birthday list in our group is dear Camellia and Kexin.
Its just too fast!!!!!
I can still remember clearly the previous times whereby we celebrated their birthdays; where & how and now we will are going to celebrate their birthdays again,SOON! 0.0

URGHHH....time really pass fast!

In the past, I love birthdays because it is the day where you feel much much more special and loved but now, as time pass, it seems like it is an occasion whereby you wish will not come soon...
Urghh....

~~At least I take comfort that I am the second youngest in our clique.~~ =P

2008-06-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

Too much rest does not neccessary mean that you will be totally energized. =/

Oh wells, despite the amount of rest that I have over the past few days/weeks, I barely feel much alive. I guess I am pretty much accustom to the slow and dreamy pace I had adjusted to
during my 'rest' period. Ha,see the difference in me when I have too much rest and when I have work to do during holidays.

On the other hand, will be meeting up with the girls from secondary school tomorrow. Feeling really happy and excited over it because it is rare to get the full count of us.
YES! Tomorrow is the day that all eight of us reunite again after a hiatus. Its time to catch up and celebrate pretty debbie's 21st birthday!^.^

Cant wait! =P

2008-06-23T06:42:00.000-07:00

Nana's toy bear had been given a make over by Me! =)

Nana warned me not to touch her the other bear which she finds important.Tskk...Like what's the big deal? *rolls eyeballs.

Anyway, from a sun-loving bear that is naked and bare for all to see, I put on clothes for it and I would say that its theme has been changed to a winter bear.

TA DA!

My scarf, hat and the vest bought from Taiwan came in useful afterall since I don't wear them in Singapore. =)

Oh, and the bear looks like a dumpling now.

I am hungrryyyy...roar~

2008-06-20T10:00:00.000-07:00

School's re-opening in a weeks time and I am so not looking forward to it.=(
In the coming semester, the subjects that I will be learning will be tougher in comparison to the previous one and I hope that it will be smooth sailing. =)
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Shopping was done yesterday and it made me slightly happier; bought a few T-shirts, two pairs of skinnies, blue tights and a cap today. It had also made me poorer.=(
But thanks to Shimin, Pok and I managed to find places that sell stuff at cheaper rates. =)

YES, we may seem like aunties but if there are cheaper goods selling at cheaper rates, with the same quality, WHY NOT? XD

Plus, I am saving up for a tour in another country nearing the end of the year and perhaps, a celebration. Hopefully, I am able to achieve my goals!!!
I am thinking of getting a part time job to supplement my wants, but on the other hand, I am worried I will have not much time for myself and for everyone around me.

OH,I cant believe I am so blind yesterday!!
Andy was standing beside me while I was shopping and I did not even sense his presence at all! Goodness gracious!!
It was only after I left the place that I read his sms that I know of his existence. ha has~

Attended Shuyu's birthday party in Pasir Ris Chalet and we hope she likes the present cause we thought that the present is pretty cute and nice. Should have taken a picture!aish~
Buffet and BBQ there was not too bad and the atmosphere was lively.
The highlight came when "pretty girl" shuyu who has never really worn a skirt in her life came down to cut her cake in a dress. It suits her and I think she looked feminine far more than any other moments that I have seen her in.
While waiting for her to change, everyone was camping eagerly outside the door to catch the first glimpse of the major change.

A picture of the anticipated Pretty girl, flashing her megawatt smile at those who were present. Poses she learned from the Taiwanese artistes came in handy as it delighted everyone and it was madness! haha. Incredibly fun.~
"Which camera is from GTV, Settv???" Quoted by the pretty girl
Make a wish!
World Peace????D
~~I wish that I will remember to pass Char the pictures I owed her since our last trip to Taiwan and Hongkong together~~~

As usual, a photo taking session took place shortly after the cake was cut.

To avoid the photo session, Pok and I ran up to the room to hide, which failed eventually since Shuyu called her friends to get us down. Thankfully, their attempt in getting us down was not forceful and we managed to escape the photo taking in front of her so many guests.
Engrossed in reading a chinese magazine while waiting for the photo session to end. Many gossips and there was a personality test! WOOT~
Did the the personality test for Pok and myself.
*grasp * POK! The test shows that you are a fickle minded person lehhh!!!*points points*
There goes an unglam candid picture~ =)

Pok and I on the train, returning home. Totally shagged from the activities done in the day.
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Blogging is one's personal habit and the blogger has the right to write anything he/she feels. Who are you to interfere what he/she writes? There are after all thoughts and feelings of the blogger.

You can choose to ignore the post and choose to get upset over it. If your character is that good as what you have portrayed, what is there to fear since your friends or family (important people) will not be affected by the post and that they would continue to believe in you?

Or rather, you own this fear that if by chance, your friends have stumbled upon the blog and learn of the rotten character you possess, they will ostracize you? Is that how you view your own friendship?The people around you? Oh, i see, it is that fragile. =/

Guess what?
My opinion of you is that you are a lowly, scheming weakling. =)
Cheers, it is because of such people that exist in the world that makes the rest look better than average. Thanks for existing. =)

2008-06-19T20:12:00.001-07:00

To you, I have many friends.
Hence, probably even losing a bestie means nothing to me.
But that is what you think.

TO me, my friends are important too and losing anyone of them is devastating. =)

You claim that no one understand you, but do you even understand my stand too? No.
This shows that no one can fully understand another, despite the amount of years spent together.
Everyday is a new day, with many new things to unveil because everyone's stand change everyday.

Ask yourself, why is everyone in the family so opposed to this friendship?
Is it merely a pure and innocent friendship like what you have claimed?

You said that I would fight back for a friend given my strong personality.
Bingo, you got it half right!

If that is a friend I truly cherish, yes! But that is also because I am fully aware of the type of friends I have and I have full confidence in them. They have underwent a lot with me and I strongly feel an infirmity with them.
But what are the kind of friends that I would say that it is different in this case?

People who even start to threaten/ to backstab the family. Daresay you are not aware of that or are you of that?
For one, I will know is that my friends does none of that and they know that I would tolerate nothing of that sort!
In the first place, don't you think you should correct the speech done by your "friend"?

This is starting to involve many people, but what many people? The people involved have the right to be involve since this is a family affair; it is pretty stabilized in our hearts that a family revolves around a close knit relationship that the members share and cannot run away from. If you think of a cycle, a member cannot do without another too.

Think about it.

You are fated to be in this family. Before we existed, we are insignificant. But because we were created, we become more and more significant; able to contribute and prove our worth. In a way, we are given a chance. Without you, would you even know your existing "friends" now?

2008-06-19T07:49:00.000-07:00

A friend ever told me if a person is deemed as wrong by more than three people, something is definitely wrong.
As simple as it may sound, I find is logical, surprisingly.

Friends do care, I agree to this.
But I would also like to ask, to what extent?

They have many other friends and family members to care too.
Do you think that friends are more important to them compared to their own family members?
Presently, the answer given might be yes.
However, as people change, their opinions and answers given will change too.
What makes you say that it is everlasting? What makes you confirm its nature?

It is different, compared to family ties.
We share the same blood and no matter how even with a love-hate relationship with it, you can never run away from it.
Even when you marry in the future, what makes you think that your husband family will treat you as one of their true and real family member.
If this is hard to prove with someone you are going to rely and love for the rest of your life in the future, what more a friendship?

Of course, friends important as they are often beside you, sharing your joy and sometimes, pain.
But that also depends on who they are!
They are also, an important part of everyone's life.

Sometimes, we find it hard to understand why some people are against the friends we made because we see no reason in it. After all, you are the one making friends with that particular person and you have seen and know the person more than others.
THERE is definitely NO reason why family is against stopping you from making friends when they see the happiness derived in you as you are surrounded by friends.
BUT like what I had said, we are only forced to step in when we realize that something is amiss.
We will definitely not want anything bad to fall upon you!

Sure, it may seem unreasonable at the moment as there is a difference in opinions.
But are you really that heartless to go against your conscience and close a blind eye to what your friends and you had done?
I don't wish to spell everything out to you. In fact, no one in the family wishes too, at the moment;because we are hoping for the time for you to change now. Everything have a reason, like what you have mentioned; what makes you think we do not have reasons?

What you deem as good and bad, is it really according to what you say?

Or do you have to wait for judgment day to know what is really good and bad?

P/s. Friends have a cycle, so does a family. You need friends to keep the cycle to continue, but are you neglecting your family cycle? Do you think that your family have no cycle too, in your words? Or are you just willing to allow the family cycle to stop for your friends cycle to continue? You have the only family cycle which is definitely there and can never be replaced.
What makes you so certain that your friends cycle is everlasting? No one can even predict the future.

I am disappointed.
It shows how fragile our ties are.

The future is never stagnant, it is ever changing; so are the people and things around us. NO ONE can guarantee what happens in the future but no one can ever run away from blood ties despite its love- hate relationship with it.

2008-06-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

Actions, wordings and body language are namely the three main factors to how a person is being judged. (in my own opinion after the first impression)
It can easily gain and lose favor in a person.

No one's life should be controlled or judged by others.
Sure, no doubt over it. Snorts~
After all, it is one's personal life and outsiders are unable to do anything about it.

But what happens if your family member is involved?
The best way is to rid the root of trouble and to stop the trouble from continuing.

Of course, in any case, family members will always be there.

I have done many wrongdoings to my family before regretfully;and I am not afraid to say it out.Because I have full confidence that despite all the mistakes that I have made in the past, my family members are people who will definitely believe in me and give me their fullest support. My family members will always be important to me.

Being in a big family is tough and slibing rivalry is bound to happen.
More often than not, I believe that my parents love my sisters more than they love me. I felt that I was neglected. Those who know me knows about these situations that I often get myself into.

Hence, I rebelled, often causing the heartache of my parents.

I ran away from home a couple of times, believing that the pain inflicted on my parents would derive the joy in me.

I was so so so WRONG.

When my mother spoke to me on the phone, crying, pleading for me to come home,I cried too. The pain inflicted on them made me pain too and all I could do is to sob bitterly and continue throwing my childish tantrums; all I wanted to do is to achieve the results that I believe in.

Money was an issue to me in the past and I did not know how to save.
All I wanted to do was to shop and play, I wanted to dress up and look pretty too! At that time, my daily allowance (weekday) was a mere 4 bucks.
In secondary 3, I took up a part time job, so that I could meet my material needs.
All these was done despite mummy and daddy's objections.
I wanted freedom and I cried for independence. They finally relented.

Around Secondary 4, I took a shorter and easier route. I tutored my youngest sister, just to get more allowance. I lazed around, did not do my job when I have no groove to do so.
My mother knew this but because I am her daughter, she is willing to forgive me.
Typing this, I am full of regrets and greed was a temptation to me at that time, something that was irresistible. I was irrational and I was wrong to do such a thing.

Mommy and daddy are getting older, yet they still faces all the wrongdoings that we continue to do sometimes. Their health is no good and to face such things, it requires a lot of energy and strength, both mentally and physically. Its not easy on them, trying to get into a role of a friend but retaining the parental authority.

Think, without mommy and daddy, we will never even exist. For us to be cloth and fed fully, they have to face lots of financial burdens that they do not have to face so seriously in the past. To support a child's basic needs is troublesome enough, what more about 4 kids?
All they want to do is to nurture us to have a better future, to have good health and to be happy. It is just so simple but hard for us, kids to achieve.

Even as a baby in our mothers' womb , it takes a lot of precise and careful effort. It is not easy and at that point of stage, every woman is at her most vulnerable stage. A slight careless move may cause a miscarriage. Everyday, mommy and daddy would just be awaiting for the newborn's arrival with and an exciting prospect in their minds. The new born is definitely not born because no one loves it; but is born because he/she is daddy and mommy's offspring, their love and to be loved.

When you are upset, what makes you think they aren't upset too? They are and they will definitely be more upset than anyone. Sleepless nights are more often or not caused by worrying for their children.
Were they fed well? are they mixing with the right people? Are they happy?
All these thoughts are constantly in their minds and they want nothing but the best for their children.

Have you ever heard that in times of poverty, for a child to survive, a mother is willing to sacrifice the only bread in her hand for her child despite her hunger; so that her child will survive? It is all the unselfish things about a parent that make them so noble.

Sure, our parents opinions are never always correct but I am sure with proper communications, a resolution can be reached. They are older and they are definitely wiser and mature than us, it is never too harmful to seek their opinions.
They can be relied on.
They can be trusted more than anyone.

Instead of collaborating or trusting in anyone else, the most basic and important thing is to trust and love your family first, isn't it? Without them, there won't be you.

Manipulating one against the family, does it derive joy? Or are you just purely sick in the mind?
Sticking by our family members is the simplest thing we will do and WILL DO . To bitch about other people's family is your full time hobby? Or rather, you do not have the courtesy or respect.
No, I guess it is not that simple. Above all, you are just pure sick in the mind and there is a need to seek for help.

One day, your actions will be caught up with you. Even if it is not now, there is still a lifetime.

Like what I say, no one is to be judged by outsiders. No one enjoys doing it either. You can do anything for all I care; whatever consequences that occur are none of my business but DO NOT INVOLVE MY FAMILY!

The trust that you had tried to cultivate in my family is gone.
In the beginning, everyone in the family welcomed you genuinely and all you did was to tarnish it, to misplace the trust. Once you misplace it, we were forced to assess you and all because we do not want any harm to befall on our precious members. We hate that too but we have to.

Let me emphasize again, what happens in your life is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS but not her life.

You may have helped in some other ways like studies or what, but daresay you are not expecting something in return?
We do appreciate your help in certain ways but lets stop for now, get out of her life and let everything fall back in place before things get ugly.

Everything was fine without you and you are not important to us.

Acting does not determine the final result on the person's thoughts and feelings on you. Lust and temporary happiness is fleeting but genuine feelings is there to stay. Time will not only cure sadness but also expose the true colors of an individual. Over a longer period of time, the knowledge gained will be processed into wisdom and you will just be a mere passerby in our lives.

2008-06-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

Things are getting more and more outrageous and mysterious.

Oh wells, hope that everything will be back in place soon.

One wrong move/action may cause lots of regrets in the future.

2008-06-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

Was in Clarke Quay with Xiuhui, Evon and Sorry, I can't remember the name yesterday .

Went to Coffee Club to chill with a joyful mood but our mood was kind of ruined by the terrible service. It was an upsetting experience!

First of all, the service crew wasn't attentive at all even when the cafe wasn't busy. There were very few customers in the cafe and they took a freaking long time to get to our table and take our order.
Secondly, after a bloody long waiting time, our drinks had not arrive.
5 mins past.......... 10 mins past.......... 15 mins past.......... 20 mins past.......... 25 mins past........

We will understand if the cafe is busy but it isn't!!! 25 mins getting absurd for takeaway drinks..
What made it worse was when we see people who ordered later than us getting their drinks almost immediately and ours had still not arrived.

It is so frustrating right???

Xiuhui and co then decided to ask the counter what is wrong with our drinks and guess what?
At that point of time, without a sorry, the staff keyed in our order.
For the past 25 mins, we sat like fools, happily waiting for our drinks that never arrived.

Not even an explanation or apology was offered to us.

When we thought that this was over and that we could get our drinks to cool us in the scorching hot weather, IT WASN'T OVER.

The service crew decided to take us for a ride again.
Even though we witness the orders right in front of the crew making the drinks, the crew did not make our drinks. Instead, she happily made drinks for the people who ordered later.
We waited for a bloody long time once again and once again, our drinks did not arrive.

Tired of waiting, we demanded a refund and decided to fore go the drinks. The crew looked reluctant to refund us.
All we wanted was a simple drink and we are unable to get from a place selling drinks. It is funny huh? Later, I had to settle for a bottle of mineral water instead.

Luckily, it did not totally ruin my day. Yesterday was still quite fun despite the mishap.

Weili came to meet us once her school ended and together, we dined in the food court at central.
Made new friends and they were interesting. =)))

After dinner, we walked over to another cafe to chill. That cafe WAS SO MUCH BETTER.
The atmosphere and service crew in the cafe made the first cafe we went to in the day look like a disgrace to its industry.
Liked that place and we continued our crapping session there.

After chilling, stayed over at Weili's house on an impromptu decision.

OH, and today's Friday the 13th!
Pan tang Weili and I decided to stay at home to play safe. HAHAHAS~
SO far, SO good...=DDD

2008-06-11T06:18:00.000-07:00

I AM SO AMAZED!

I have no idea how come cooked eggs can look so different! =(
Furthermore, its not different in the sense like half boiled eggs, scrambled eggs and hard boiled eggs!

For example, my maid's cooked eggs will always be flat, in a piece and the same colour according to how I see it.

Adopting similar methods, I cooked my scrambled eggs.
Ehhh, don't doubt it, the eggs are cooked!

The eggs - instead of turning out like how my maid cooked, they appear to be in small bits and pieces; and there is a defined seperation of egg white and egg yolk ,with a layer of chao tah eggs on top of the wok.
It is definately not the sunny side up kind of eggs ( I think this is how they call it?) but really scrambled eggs that even taste slightly different. (To me)

WEIRD EH?

I dont mean to sound like a suaku but it is always just these small, little mere things in life that makes me feel pleasantly surprised. =)
Different people make and prefer different eggs is probably just like how different people make different choices? (no logic but oh well...I am pleased with that!!Hooray!!!XD)

But...I really prefer my maid's eggs to mine. *whines...

Quite alot of happenings at home recently.

Super Uber nice people with no tolerance level may exist; even if they do, they must be very very very few. These angels are probably harder to find than a wishing star.

People who act super uber nice will eventually feel tired of acting. Once the acting is over, the misplaced trust that was once there will never be replaced fully.

Pick someone of your own, someone who is willing to devote his/her time in playing all the silly mind games you have and quit bothering those who are not involved.

Think that you are all grown up? Think that you have the capability to judge someone even older than you? Someone who is old enough to be your mother? Think that you have the right to correct the way someone teach their offspring?

Think twice.

By hurling all that tantrums and unkind words on an older person only prove your maturity level which I have by the way, suspected, was at its birthstage and not even on the developing stage.(You have proven me right, good job! =)).
I have absolutely no interest to see what kind of grown up words/logic you have in store.

Before talking to someone wiser and kinder than you, please learn your manners and respect at the very least. =)

2008-06-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

Happy is just like a rebellious baby/toddler and he is getting out of hand! ^!%@!%@&!^&*@^*!^@*&!^*

(taken from his mommy's friendster =) )

In the past, he could only eat baby food - milk with soluble food.
Now, he's beginning to eat human food like rice and bread, thanks to his growing teeth.
Today he ate the most unthinkable things such as SAND !!!

Goodness gracious!!!!!!!!!!
I would highly appreciate if he knows the skill of killing all the gross cockroaches in the house.

Kind of snap at him today because he is extremely horrible! He went ~~kee siao~~ mad and he started to attack me, all because he isn't allowed to bite me.

Did he think I was playing with him when I scold him??? *roarrr

Out of anger cause his bites are starting to hurt, I grabbed a book near me and hit him away. In retaliation, he started to make a move towards me again.
Once again, he got hit by me. Kinda expected~
He's quite a poor thing BUT instead of reflecting on his mistakes, he still, defiantly kept to his stubborn, pig headed ways. ~~I know I am already treating him like a human.~~

I really really didn't mean to hit him but I have no idea on how to stop his aggression.

(taken from his mommy's friendster again. Happy's face should be like this if he is a human, reading my blog. "Its like whatever" )

Met up with Weili yesterday for dinner and now, the both of us spot bangs!
It wasn't intentional nor was it pre-planned;furthermore, Weili already had bangs before it.
She had always wanted to have thicker bangs and as for me, it is purely a mistake...
I should have known better not to tamper with my own fringe.

How many times did I got laughed at for a ruler-straight fringe, or a fringe that was cut super short and weirdly?
I seriously can't remember....but I can always remember feeling even more down when Tara Tan, an evil friend of mine laughed at my hair when I am already in a miserable state because of it.

My eldest sister laughed at my hair, saying that she wasn't used to it and Weili tells me that it is fine. Hopefully, it is a pretty hairdo despite all that comments. =DDD
Luckily, this mistake happened during the holidays. I don't dare to think what will happen to me if this mistake happen during school days. I probably get more laughs?? *_*

Rebecca's back from Thailand, after seeing DBSK and BIGBANG.
I had envied her when I know that she's going to Thailand, but I am greener with envy after seeing gorgeous pictures of DBSK in Thailand. AHHHH.....=((((

Max looked so yummy and my eyes were glued to his pictures more than any other members,though Xiah is my ultimate number one!!!! XD

Immediately save this picture down once I saw it in soompi and this picture is up to beautify my blog!HAHAHS~

(So good looking right?? yummy yummy max) =)))))))

2008-06-08T06:21:00.000-07:00

Korean fans are known to be passionate to their idols; but after reading about the incidents that occurred during the DREAM concert, I conclude NEVER EVER provoke a fan in Korea. They can be your greatest ally and your greatest enemy! ~~It is pretty rowdy?~~

Some fans were rushed to the hospital as they were attacked, securities were terrible, hitting fans' heads and expensive banners were tore as their fans wept.

Boyyyy, thank god the situation for the stars and their fans are not like that in Singapore.

The worst that I could remember during my time was urm, securities pushing away fans and urm, there was lots of shovings here and there? ya...my memories are failing me...=/

Poor SNSD!
Though I don't fancy them as much as CJSH, they are seriously undergoing a terrible period. Poor girls.

The three major FCs: Cassiopeia, Elf and Triple S filled up more than half the place even though there were more fan clubs there! Really really pretty! =)) I likeee.... =)))

Of course, as usual, DBSK look as suave as ever. =)
The only thing is that I don't like micky's hair! Please get a hair cut!!!!!hahas

Oohhh and I am liking Super Junior H- Good luck song, makes me feel happy=)

I am in a happy mood. ^.^

2008-06-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

The women in my house are hard at work even though it is a SATURDAY.

Mama is cleaning the dog's poo, ewwwwww

Da jie is baking cookies for her friends, tskkkkkk

and youngest sis is making banana fritters.Amazinggggg

Well,its just another day of lazying around for me.=)) Didn't meet up with Shar, Jowie and Hawa today as everyone attendence isn't confirm and the lazy me has just woken up.

Watched the taiwanese verison of Honey and Clover yesterday and compared the the Japanese version, this is less boring cause of the sound effects and animations. PLUS, the guys acting in the show are really really cute. Besides the well known actors Zheng yuan chang and Eddie peng, there was a 3rd male lead lego li guo yi who is damn boyish. I like his looks!!! XD

Though lego is not as known as his peers, i think, he had already starred in a couple of MVs like S.H.E (Shou ni ai wo & hui hui) and F.I.R (Shan ge xing yuan). XD

Gotten the singing session pictures from Weili. (IMAGE HEAVY!)

JUMP! JUMP! JUMP!
Weili kept laughing at this picture
Joice, our urm, operator?
Joice, Xiuhui & I

THE IDOLS, HAHA...Puke version~
The sickening, smug and stuck up kind.
Inspired by luo zhixiang's concert video
Mobbed by overzealous fans!AHHHHHH
the experienced fan getting attention from the cute idol.

LASTLY,
The nice and friendly idol...HAHAHA

Group picture after the whole session...Too shag and tired. Look at Joice! HAHAHA

AM so lazy to post up more pictures cause there are too many!!! I cant stop grinning when I am watching the videos...HAHAHAHS~

2008-06-06T08:47:00.000-07:00

I am still feeling lazy right now even though I have more than ten hours of sleep today.=(

On a last minute decision, I cabbed down to Serangoon Gardens to meet shimin and we cabbed down to Clarke Quay together. The cab uncle's attitude sucks. =(

Debbie was already there and we went to Lunar to find Kexin and her friends, Pearl and Tricia. =)
After a drink at Lunar, Zouk was our next destination. It was a pity that Kexin and her friends couldn't stay for long, so only debbie, shimin and I stayed on until the closing hours of Zouk.

Debbie had a couple of incidents which was well, interesting...hahahs!

Kexin and Debbie. The other pictures look like crap and we look like we have enormous eyebags due to the irritating glitter that keep smudging!~~

Reached home around 7+ in the morning after breakfast with the girls. Lingered around the void deck as I waited for daddy to go to work. Thank god I had Andy on the phone to keep me accompany. =)

Woke up around 3 plus in the afternoon and got ready to meet weili, Joice and Xiuhui for Karaoke session in Bugis.

Topone is quite a cool place to go for singing sessions. Urm, the service is not too bad, its clean and there are some buttons to play with in the room. For example disco lights that are suitable for urm, cai yi ling songs?

We couldnt get the room with smoke! =( I was soooo looking forward for that! That room is only available for more than 8 patrons and we were short of 4 more people! hahas

The singing session was mad!! We jumped around like some lunatics, dance crazily and sang so loudly that people who want to go to the loo (which was next to our room) could hear our singing. It was super unglam but it was fun!! XD

Xiuhui and Weili thinks that we can lose weight in the process and we should go for more singing sessions like this to lose weight. (BUT I DIDNT LOSE ANY WEIGHT =((()

Cabbed back home with Weili cause we were feeling lazy and tired. Yet to receive the pictures and the videos from the girls.

OOOHhh, I thought I heard someone singing around 3+ am in the morning while I was using the computer. Wah piang, it was damn freaky and the puppy was asleep.I even pause the shows I was watching to check f I was dreaming but the singing still persist on and off. Really really hope it was my imagination. Too frightened to continue whatever I was doing, I quickly off the com and ran back to my room where I feel MUCH MUCH safer.

Undeterred, I am still using the computer today and its nearing 1am. Pray nothing happens this time round.

May be meeting Hawa, Shar and Jowie tomorrow. Shar is really undergoing a terrible period now and I hope that she will be fine and stop thinking too much. We will always be there. =)

Sunday- may be meeting Debbie, Shimin and Kexin again after Kexin's school. ^.^

I love all my girlfriends.=DDD

2008-06-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

MY RESULTS ARE OUT!

Thank god, I passed! =)))

I seriously thought I will fail. Poor girls who keep hearing me harp on how I will fail.

Really want to thank my lucky stars to allow me to proceed safely to the next semester. =D

Anyway, despite my fear yesterday, I watched this drama series 純白の恋 (starring Jang nara and shawn yue).

It is quite a nice show, not too draggy nor fast. I like it even though I thought that Jang nara and shawn yue combination is pretty weird since they don't seem to match.

Next, I am eyeing to watch 戀爱兵法. Kim Jeong hoon is acting in it and I seriously like how he look.

Woahhh, just look at those puppy eyes! *melts.. he he

Dramas, dramas and more dramas..I am really a drama queen during the holidays!~

2008-06-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

OMG! My damn results will be out tomorrow, in less than 24hrs!!

I know I have done badly; considering the efforts I have put in and the mixed feelings i had whilst doing the paper. =(
Despite efforts to cheer me up after the completion of my papers , I was inconsolable. There were even thoughts of quitting school as I felt deflated.

But given the current society and environment, it is almost deemed to be a failure without a certificate. Furthermore, with the increasing expectations and pressure from my family, my results will be seen as embarrassing.

Urghhh...I hate to be embroiled in such situations! However, I am partially at fault too. yuan bu de ren~
I guess I was too complacent and thus, I took studying really lightly. In the past, I was always lucky and manage to pass even without much effort.

All I can do is hope that lady luck will favor me once again. I am really really repentant!

Read from asianfanatics forum that a boyband member from Korea has attempted suicide due to depression. Whoever it is, I just hope that he will not harbour any more of such thinking. Hopefully, it is just a rumor.

Really wish that peace will stay the way it is. =/

2008-06-02T10:46:00.000-07:00

Its HOLIDAYS!!!!!~

It has been quite a while and I am still jobless...

Its like a miracle since the typical me will be enthusiastic in finding a job a.s.a.p after my exams.

This time round, I've decided to give myself a break, resting and slacking away my holidays...XD

(I have been doing that for the past few days! )

Andy feels that my break will not last throughout the holidays once I run out of money. *Snorts

Anyway, met up with Joice, Xiuhui and pok dearies last week and it was enjoyable, considering the time since we last met.

Joice is going to taiwan for an exchange programme! Lucky her!

I would go too, if I have the chance; for experience and fun!!

Please pack me in the luggage! heh heh! I don't mind enduring the 4 -5 hrs of flight journey. =DD

Xiuhui really have a knack for telling ghost stories.

Everytime pok and I meet up with her, there's always new and interesting ghost stories to share. YEA, Pok and I are her ardent "fans"!hahas...

Us camwhoring in the toliet! =D

Met up with kx, shim and debbie during the week too seperately and had our usual crapping sessions.

Bought the dress that I fancied and thought of having though it was alittle on the tight side because of its material. Saw one that wasnt that tight!

I wonder if I will regret having that dress. I have some dresses in my waredrobe and I have yet to wear them. Perhapes I should keep wearing them soon so that the money spend on them will not wasted.

Roamed around with pok in Marina square today and it was great! May be meeting her on thursday again with xiuhui and joice.

OL~
If this is so called nice, look below!

This is super pro laaa!!

Tsskkk tssk....pro pok is best at acting in *** ***** **** and she wants to impart her skills to xiuhui, joice and I..

^_^

oohhh...this is super random but I think I am turning into a vampy again! My night is my morning and afternoon !haa~~

2008-06-02T09:05:00.001-07:00

Many a times, we tend to slip into "I" mode. (Char's theory. unaware if this theory really does exist.)

"I" mode - An easy tendency to think of only ourselves regardless of situations. It is just so easy to be lured into the trap of self pity.

I loathe the feeling because it is selfish; and to me, I see it as unbecoming.

In my case, whenever I sink into "I" mode, I find myself unconsciously throwing silent tantrums which should not happen in my so called principles. When I think back objectively, I findthis behaviour extremely childsh because the people around me are mostly unintentional.
In the process, the one who is causing hurt to myself and unhappiness to the rest is the oh-so-great me.

This feeling should be changed.
It is definately not easy because the emotions derived are uncontrollable;it is hard not to be swayed by them.

---------------------------

Enough of my ranting..Roar~~~

Shall post pictures of the mischievious rascal who had just, shitted awhile ago, making me clean his shit in agony and regrets of bringing him out the cage out of pity. But oh wells, I shall forgive him since his entry into our house had brought us joy and laughter! XD

H.A.P.P.Y ( pretty image heavy)
Angel face, devil heart!!

He is one brat who enjoys sleeping on his back, as if he is suntanning, free of worries. (oh, he has no worries..his only worry is probably only food =) )

2008-06-02T09:02:00.000-07:00

huangWEILI. says:
hahah
huangWEILI. says:
so what's ur blog add?
c h a r l e n e says:
char-looney-world.blogspot.com
c h a r l e n e says:
hafnt done la
c h a r l e n e says:
lOL
c h a r l e n e says:
rem the old one
c h a r l e n e says:
i dun intend to do a new one
huangWEILI. says:
wah
huangWEILI. says:
that one
huangWEILI. says:
still alife a?
huangWEILI. says:
lol
c h a r l e n e says:
no la
c h a r l e n e says:
but i m making it alive again!

YES!!! This Blog is A.L.I.V.E again!! =DDDDD

2007-08-13T02:27:00.000-07:00

wakakaka...
Seems like i got alot of bad points!!
=D

2007-08-13T02:26:00.001-07:00

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Open-Mindedness - 54.5% 2. Financial Situation - 53.8% 3. Adventurousness - 50%	1. Humorlessness - 75% 2. Pessimism - 66.7% 3. Vanity - 58.3% 4. Selfishness - 54.5% 5. Shyness - 54.2%

Dating Strengths Explained
Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys. Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid guys who are only interested in your money. Adventurousness - You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Humorlessness - You need to learn how to take a joke, or better yet how to tell a good one. A well-developed sense of humor is high on the list of desired traits for daters. Pessimism - Too much cynicism can be a turn-off. Try to see the brighter side of things and people will be attracted to your positive outlook. Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial. Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to his needs. Shyness - You know all too well the limits shyness places on you. Putting yourself out there in social situations may be difficult, but essential to your dating success.
Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz

2007-08-05T23:17:00.000-07:00

My poor left eye is swollen!!
Been swollen since sat and Weili thinks that I look like I just got punched…

Karma is really damn ‘ling’…Shall not do any thing that will let bad things befall me in the future..*Prays*

First, I went to S.H.E event with a pure intention to sabotage my friend. It did not go as planned. Instead, I was sabotaged…Like what the hell…
=(

Next, I suffered a sore eye right after I laughed at someone having a swollen eye.
It wasn’t a few days later or what…It was the very NEXT day that I suffered the sore eye.

Ahhh…the week was really bad…the television exploded while I was watching some disc. It was really my first time seeing a television giving out smoke. So now, there isn’t any television for me to watch…=((

Well,

At least,

This week will be a much better week…

I think,

Because I can be able to feel it…=))

2007-07-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

On the way to work, I realized that anyone can just catch my attention by being hardworking and serious when the time calls for it. Ehem, though Ms ang here aint any hardworking person herself, but to her, hardworking people are always mesmerizing as they immerse themselves in what they are doing.

Okay, it’s just a certain feel towards the person la…it just catches you for that moment!!
And yea, it doesn’t matter how exactly attractive the person is. It’s the attitude!!! I bet BB aka weili agrees with me at this point…kexin should understand…

A conversation between Debbie and I about qualities our other “half” should probably need to attract us:

A month full of cakes says:
i dun care abt his looks
Debbie says:
ayyy
Debbie says:
so what u care about now
Debbie says:
i guess looks are nt tht impt even for u
Debbie says:
but i always tot it's one of the mst impt things for u
A month full of cakes says:
HAHAHHAHA
A month full of cakes says:
I tink as long as average can le
A month full of cakes says:
feelings most impt
A month full of cakes says:
feel nth means nth'
Debbie says:
mm yeah that's true
Debbie says:
i used to think so too
Debbie says:
but then i think sometimes
Debbie says:
u dont really know how u feel?
Debbie says:
like, feeling can pei yang sometimes
Debbie says:
so not always the best gauge?
Debbie says:
haha
A month full of cakes says:
yeaaa
A month full of cakes says:
true
A month full of cakes says:
so perhapes is ur impression on that person le

Today morning, I was late for work as usual, but that was not the main point!!
The main point was the bus traveled so slowly today as the door (not the entrance door) keeps jamming itself up.
Hence, for the safety of the passengers, the driver had to make sure that the door is fully closed. At that point of time, some people looked on in curiosity, some constantly glancing at their watches. Considering that situation, if I were the bus driver, I probably could not handle it. I am on my own, the captain of this bus and I am under pressure to drive the bus lest to the unhappiness of the commuters. I realized that I am not as independent as I really want to make myself to believe. Actually, sometimes, its not that we don’t understand ourselves… we understand ourselves perfectly well… but sometimes, we need reminders from others, to tell us that we are like this and that. We choose to live our lives in self delusion.

I feel that humans are all complex creatures. When you think you have known them long enough, they often surprise you with other characteristics...It can be disappointing for friends whom feel that they should have known each other for a lifetime.
In fact, I think that all humans are unpredictable. Because we get sick and tired of our identity sometimes that we often switch and play around with other characters. It could be our mood in play as well…I mean, even a quiet person would love to be wild some day…well, maybe not everyday… AHHH….Perhaps, I probe too much! XD

It’s just like me, to think a lot…to change a simple thing, a simple logic into many explanations and putting myself into other people shoes as well…. To think how would they feel…?

I know who really cares for me; I know who are making use of me. Some are just looking for me just for means to cure their unhappiness for the day. And on other days, they just chuck me aside like I don’t really mean a thing. On that day that they really need you, or have to seek for your company, they suddenly ‘understand’ and empathize with you. Tsk…this is very bad... like I don’t sense a thing.

I certainly hope I don’t ooze out that kind of feeling! I love to know more about my friends life as well as keep them updated on my life!~

LAST of all, I really want to confess to my dear friends out there… I might not be a good friend…I might have my personal mood swings, coming out only when I feel like it, contacting when I am in a good mood/terrible mood … I am super weird… I am extremely prideful and egoistic at times…yet, I feel really sorry for myself at, crying over nonsensical stuff... But trust that I love u people! I don’t know my directions well, be it directions in life or what... I may have trouble at times, but because I have my dear lovely friends who really care my depressions are always short lived!! =) Of course, sometimes, my family members do make me feel better too...

I am sorry for being an attention whore sometimes! XD but I guess my friends and family members will not be bothered by that! =DD

Lovess…..

2007-07-03T20:20:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, it’s good being messy.

Reason being:

There might be some pleasant surprises in the future. Such an incident happen to me today…

Was feeling broke today and yesterday, there was like only a few coins in my jeans pocket!!! (Yea, that’s how broke I am, hahas) But anyway today, when I wore another pair of jeans, I got a pleasant surprise --found a 2 dollars note inside…YAY…another 2 dollars note!!! So I aint that broke anymore…Still can buy a meal with it…Lolx…

Kexin thinks its funny…
Lolx…

I bet some people will be blasting me, that this is just a lame excuse for being messy…But oh well, something good did come out of it mahhhhh….

Hee…
I think that even if nothing good comes out of it, I will still continue being messy…=D

Char, the messy princess! =D

2007-07-01T23:14:00.001-07:00

Blogging straight from the office today.
Andrea is in batam today all the way till Wednesday I think; my mentor is changed to Jimmy – For the next few days.
For some reasons why, I feel lost without Andrea. Perhaps I’ve gone too reliant on her for the endless help she had showered ever since I joined this company.

However, this isn’t a good sign. Because I cannot be too dependent on her. It’s my job and I got to do it by myself one day and she will no longer be en task to help me. Yes. There is a certain fear I think… =D

I am still trying to get used to this work scope, still trying to adapt to the work environment. Somehow, I aint someone who is very easily adaptable, a far cry from the personality test I took in the past. (I guess my personality does change overall too) It’s really really bad! I need to learn how to be more adaptable…

Internet connection is really bad over here, in the company at the moment!!!

Baobei aka weili and I have decided. Before one month of our school’s opening next year, we will go touring... Provided we have the monetary means and we share the same timing!!

We will go to countries that are cheaper and is a haven for shopping and not forgetting food! ßThat’s very important!!

Watched fantastic four and transformers last week and in my opinion, I think that fantastic four is a nicer movie…Many would think transformers is better though…Oh well, different views...XD

Read about Ishi’s death in the papers. Got to know about the news through Xiuhui. At first, I thought that someone was most likely playing a prank on her and I started laughing about it to Andy who was on the line.
It turned out to be true which made me find it impossible to believe. Flashes of him from SB came to my mind and well, I don’t know what to say. It made me feel damn frightened somehow. Life is too fragile…it’s too scary.

Life is weird. Sometimes it’s whether you want to take control of it a not…but the scary part is even if you want to take control of it, circumstances force you to a ‘corner’, giving you no choice…

I know what I am saying is weird sometimes…like I am babbling things that people don’t understand…so yea…

God bless those who are left behind by their loved ones and I wish those who are not around will find joy in the other side. =)

I pondered about the things I am afraid of should one day if I were to leave…
It’s a fascination yet it’s a fascination I do not want to undergo!

I am damn bloody afraid of not doing the things that I always yearn to do, bloody afraid that I will miss my loved ones, bloody afraid of going to an unknown world where I don’t know if my five senses still exist, bloody afraid of how I look after death...I am just bloody afraid… What if death is not how you may picture it as…like heaven and hell?? Like perhaps you will just totally disappear? From the face of the earth? From the face of the other so called world? Will I still have feelings at that time??

Brushing aside all the negative thoughts, I wish to remain real and I do better deeds. I need to be good. I hate karma………Its time to pump in real thoughts and real actions!

I am not someone who is good in expressing myself, be it in words or in conversations. But I am really thankful that my friends around me, came to understand me even before I speak. They read me like a book! For the people around me, I think I am lucky!=D

2007-06-30T00:27:00.000-07:00

Tool for entertainment?

Damn u

2007-05-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

the feeling sucks!

2007-05-15T05:37:00.000-07:00

Pissed pissed...
I aint allowed to resign...
okay...
I hafnt tendered...
i still have afew more days to go to tender....

What i cant bloody stand is the manager giving me lotsa pressure,
Constantly reminding me not to quit...
apparently, he knows about my 2 months 'contract'....
And I believe that he have this feeling that I am quitting...
Darn it...
Isnt it my free will to quit when I am not happy in this job?

Heard he's a dangerous manager...
Calling up the previous workers' new company...to tok about the worker or so....
Just hearing how dangerous he gets sends shivers dwn my spine...
Its like....
I have never seen such weird person...
Its scary.....
Which makes me all the more determined to quit because i strongly believe that once I quit this company, there isn't any other company that is as scary as this....
OF COURSE...
I do not want to quit my other future jobs....
Because it is damn tiring to scout for new jobs and a satisfactory environment....

DArn this whole thing!

2007-05-07T04:59:00.000-07:00

watching smile again...k drama....
OH man....lee dong gun....shuai...
WOOT~~~

if everything goes smoothly...i wun be feeling depressed every mon to fri....XD

2007-04-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

I quarreled with a fucked up woman living in my house last week...

Yes, technically speaking..she is my sister...but the bond is just not there..

It was gone ever since we reached puberty...

At first, it started with minor and childish matters...

Instead of correcting the way we behave towards one another, we became hostile...

Hence, we drifted apart...and we do not interact with one another at all...

People often say that when you reach puberty, there is a tendency of being unreasonable at times...But it seems to me, she hasnt gotten out of the puberty phrase, which is extremely weird..for she is turning nineteen this year...

A supposedly gifted child with brains,is suprisingly doing things and quarreling over matters which is so trival and there is simply no logic behind them..

Sometimes I wonder is her brains only used for studying...

what else can she be good in other than books?

let me take the incident that happened last week as an example...

I was getting ready to use the toliet after yulin, my youngest sister...

Told my youngest sis about it and happily on the heater for a nice, comforting bath...

To my horror, as i was about to step into the toliet...

That fellow, eileen took her stuff and demanded for me to get out...

Of course, being as head strong as ever,I refused...

Later in the night....I went into the toliet again...seeing no one!!!Theres no one!!

!It was damn peaceful and I thought that everyone was sleeping...

So there was I, cultivating the shit to drop out of my ass...

Suddenly, the lights went off and on...And from inside, I heard a 'Tsking' Sound...

After that, a commotion arise...She went to my parents room to fucking complain..."Why must that fellow use the toliet whenever I want to use the toliet?"<--Her fucking ridiculous complain...

I was like HELLO?Did the toliet spell your name?DID it specify what time you wanna go in?And by what fucking rights do you have to say such stuff?FUCKING ridiculous...

To think I actually tolerate her wires messily spewed over my rooms door...Its UGLY :(

I really hate her...She fuckingly thinks she is the best...

I remembered that there was this instance whereby she said to me that I can only use the old stuff while she, the new stuff...

Isnt that ridiculous?There aint any respect from her...Even though I m older than her by a fucking year...

My mom was caught in a dilemma....I sincerely do not want to be part of it...BUT i simply can't help it...because I cannot tolerate her selfish behaviour...GROW UP....

Kexin and I are so inlove with jerseys...But we cant decide on whether to get it anot...

but weili thinks that its too man for me and that wife would look good in it...AHHHH....

AHHH...for now,I shall enjoy my pre holiday mood!!!

KEXIN, the flasher...

BOO! HORROR~

she n her 2 hubbies...

SHIMIN, KEXIN and I camwhoriNG!

2007-04-21T23:19:00.000-07:00

Previous post was mushy huh?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2007-04-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

昨天慶祝IVY的生日。。
人數雖然沒有到期﹐但是我們還是玩得開心。。
IVY﹐你老了喔。。
哈哈。。
很快的。。我也會變老吧。。。
呵呵。。
時間不會為我停留。。。
=(
好希望它能停下腳步。。。
多希望。。。。。
好啦。。。就秀秀美麗又可愛的IVY的照片吧﹗~

以前和IVY最有糾紛的是我。。。
不想拋下自尊和好的也是我。。。
直到畢業了。。沒聯絡的我們。。。
腦海里還沒浮現“複合”兩個字的我們。。想必真的不再聯絡。。。
朋友們夾在我們中間。。真的好辛苦。。。好辛苦。。。
常勸我忘了仇恨。。。張開心胸。。。不要在計較下去。。。
但。。。好難。。。因為我不是一個容易忘記過去的人。。。
但。。。
前兩年。。終於﹐終於。。。我開竅了。。。
覺得這樣也不是方法。。。
朋友辛苦。。。
而我開始有想念﹐沒有糾紛的日子。。。
想念我們和其他朋友在一起的日子。。。
我想。。。我們也長大了許多。。。
思想也開始便MATURED了許多。。。
不會為了那些不必要的事再鬧糾紛。。。
開始了解對方。。。
嗯。。。
未來。。。我是不敢保證ANYTHING。。。
但。。。我們幾個好姐妹。。。我是真的很珍惜。。。
珍惜我們在一起的時間。。。
請我們的友誼這樣走下去。。。無論如何。。。
我從來沒說過。。。。
但﹐
我很依賴你們。。。
而我也為你們感到為榮。。。
P/S。。。依賴你們是間好的事嗎?哈哈。。。

人數雖然沒到期,在場的人

2007-04-16T05:36:00.000-07:00

Its monday again...and I am suffering from monday blues...
HAHAS~~
luckily lunch was not bad....
because andy came down to accompany me...haha...knowing my plight
he even use the word "prison" to describe my job...
IS that really how inmates feel?
HAHAHAS

Not much work to do today...
just much of slacking, eating and staring into blank space...
I guess ever since I dyed my hair into shades of autumm, my colleagues were even more cold towards me...Well, they were hostile towards me beforehand.....
I hate the fact that I am gaining weight easier...easier than before and everyone is growing skinner....
I hate the fact that I do wallow into self pity and I start getting all depressed to feel lonely....
I really hate these kind of bullshit....yea???

Was listening to everyone problems today...Well....More more reading...HAHA
Yea...everyone' s going through a tough patch now....
But I M SERIOUSLY proud and glad....
that I have friends like gems who care, who help...
Its really heart warming...
And I am satisfied with my group of friends....
I am proud to tell everyone...hey these are my friends!!!
I think that there's no need to say who they are...for my friends, I believe, know my unspoken actions...
I REALLI LOVE them alot!!!!=)

Really looking forward to tomorrow....
Note** AFTER WORK
hahahs
because my girls (Part of my gems) and I are going to meetup for free ice cream...
WOOT~~
totally looking forward to it...
And we can catch up along the way and have fun like how we always do...

Also looking forward to friday where I will meet up with the other girls(part of my gems) for dinner...
woot...I havent been seeing them for a long long time...
Probably a year and more...
But thankfully, the phone contact is still there...HAHAS...
Miss them alot and the wild times we have....
Gonna have fun!~

SUN---> went to taka, met up with cjin ping, shuyu,her sis and weili....
Stef came to join us for awhile....
Shuyu and her sis didnt stay long either...
But 3 of us still had fun....finding our way...as in incidental....to SAF exhibition or so?
REALLI REALLI fun....
shall post pictures on it soon...
weili is super cute can...
for comments she put...fun fun fun...have handsome guys!!
HAHAHHAS
ITS SO freaking cute can?
YEA...
i agree with her leh...think that uniformed, smart guys are really cool and good looking...
HAHAHAHS
okay..shan't gush about it....
But .....it really makes a person better looking ma...In our opinions laaa.....
heh heh...

But seriously, aside from cute guys, the stuff they put up for visitors are fun...
Can check them out next week...I think there's another exhibition in Jurong east...
hahas~~

whooo....I made a wretch afew days back....Quite cool!hahahs

2007-04-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

OKAY I M SO SUPER GLAD THAT ITS FRI!
wootttt
I hate the pple there...
super hate.....
those ard me will noe y...:)

WHo cares......for the time being?Its fri evening!!!
WOOTT
i will care on mon...:(

2007-04-11T06:33:00.000-07:00

screw the previous post...
thanks everyone!:)
I hate it...but i still haf to undergo it though there were sum horrible mobid thots about sucide!:)
SO....don't worry about me....I will be fine:)
Cheers...

2007-04-09T05:13:00.000-07:00

no one seems to care how I feel....
its always ME in the wrong...
Why isit that there isnt one who realli understand and realli cares how I feel?
Even as I am on the brink of tears...
No one cares...my parents kip blaming me...for what I feel isnt my fault...
Kip saying that I will suffer retribution....
I bite my lips...realli trying my best...to prevent my tears from flowing..
But its not working...
TEARS to me is a sign of weakness...a sign of fear...
I CAN NEVER CRY...I...i wun allow myself to....
DAMN...but why are the tears rolling helplessly...
I dun wan to show that I can be affected...
Why must I always seem to sacrfice?
All for the sake of the other...
Will it be better If i m dead?
Death can be better?
I wonder...would I feel a sense of happiness once I am gone...
Maybe I can smile......
It will be good...it will be free...
I can imagine the happiness....one that I could probably feel...
Yes...I m having retribution...
My retribution is this....
Loneliness to engulf me....
To me alone...
In me alone, can trust be placed...
For no one cares and understand...

My parents tink I m fine outside...
I m not...seriously...I want to be away!In a place full of peace and void of feelings....
When I am home...they expect me to give way...
when all my fucking damn bloody hell I will not acknowledge her Bitch thinks herself superior...
that I must use sumthing worser than her...
That her thinking, her ways must be implemented...
If i wait..If I wait for her to change...will time wait for me?
I told my mum...Time will not wait for me...
So, why can't I just do my stuff....
My mother took her side....
upsetting me...because she doesnt know how I feel...
Inferior...
As nice as it seems to be...bt....I m suppose to be more inferior??
Even in my parents' minds?
So what?She's the precious gem and I, the rubbish and scrap?
Yea...retribution....
Sorry for giving u retribution if u put it...
N thank you for the retribution that I will have...
Because I am fucking unhappy...and one more retribution or so, will not hurt me animore....
It will not me any happier....Or at a better ease....
Thank you for understanding me...IN a fucking manner....
From now on...
Just leave me the way I am ..........
Yes...
Like tis...
I noe it sounds dramatic...
but i nid no one....
I m happy by myself....
Being alone is solace itself...

2007-04-07T09:39:00.000-07:00

AHHHH
I don't like it at all...
its so not fun!!
HAHAS

Well,as many know, energy was Jolin's guest stars in the concert held in singapore 2007...
They arrived on Good friday...
And I did not manage to see them at ALL...
Because, apparently Miss Ang here is TOOO lazy to do so!
I refused to get out of bed la....

Hopefully, If there is a chance...
If IF I am able to wake myself up,I will send them off in the airport today....
Chances are 50-50???HAHA...i don't know myself....

HMMM....today...I guess weili had lots of fun....I was basically, just lazing around and on the verge of falling asleep, which I found it weird...
Normally, it will be the other way...Me having lots of fun and weili, falling asleep...
SO SO SO weird can???

AHHH...I want to see ENERGY...want to see Kunda....
but its all my own decision...cant fault anyone other than myself..:D

Oohhh...And i want to see jolin too!!I think she's damn hot and pretty....
EH...if i m a guy, I will definately like her...
She has looks, body and I don't know what else?HAHAHS....but yea...her outer appearance is like...woottt~
Heard her skin is wrinkled....but its weird...seriously...cause i cant see it on tv....

I m so sleeply!!Shall retire to bed...N hopes everything goes smoothly for me...

p/s....my friend is searching for beautiful people for their pictures to be taken on a magazine or something like that....So...I shall just look around...:D

2007-04-02T04:09:00.000-07:00

CHECK this pictures out!!!hahaha...i took them in taiwan!~~~I thot they are pretty interesting...:)

2007-03-31T01:39:00.000-07:00

I wonder how much a BIG jar can hold when you pee into it( when your bladder is super duper full)...
Ok, fine...I m weird....superly weird on a sat afternoon.......:D